Motivation...
For someone as generally apathetic and entirely unmotivated as myself, I think the consistency with which I've been updating this here LiveJournal is downright shocking. Sure, I've cheated by a few hours quite often, and to be honest, tonight I'm backdating a full day because I was NOT in a writing state for the last couple nights (just WAY too tired). Nevertheless, I think I've done pretty well, and I take a little bit of pride (even though my comments have dropped off sharply =P). Nevertheless, on nights like tonight, when I see I've fallen a little bit behind, it's fairly hard to make myself really want to make up for the last couple nights' slacking. Basically, the thing that's keeping me going right now is the thought that I've been so good up till now, so why stop?
The problem with that thinking, though, is that sooner or later, something is going to drag me way for updating for a couple days and I just won't be able to keep up, and by the time I can start again, it'll be too much to make up for. In fact, I know for certain it will be sooner instead of later, because I'll be in Atlanta for Cartoon Network from Wednesday to Saturday. So on the one hand, we have the problem that once that comes, the novelty of having updated every day since my LiveJournal revival will be shattered, and so it shall fall into disrepair (or at the very least, comparative disrepair...I still get something of a kick out of semi-regular updating). But the more immediate problem that creates is that for the last couple days, even a week before this Atlanta trip of mine, I know that trip is coming, and I know what it will do to my updating schedule, and so a very large part of me - the part I like to call "lazy" - is very ready to say "screw it" early and become irresponsible even sooner. I'm very much trying to fight that impulse out of principle and out of the novelty I was talking about (which I suppose I'd like to preserve as long as possible).
I think I shall vow to keep daily updates until I leave for Atlanta, from there, I'll just do what feels right when I get back. Who knows, maybe I'll be in a mindset that brushes off that lost time and returns to demanding daily updates. Even if that happens, though, I'm sure I'll feel lazy or tired again on same day in the future, and Atlanta will be a perfect excuse to let those nights slide. So enjoy it while you can, people.
You KNOW you like the fact that my music right now is Barry White. You KNOW it!
The problem with that thinking, though, is that sooner or later, something is going to drag me way for updating for a couple days and I just won't be able to keep up, and by the time I can start again, it'll be too much to make up for. In fact, I know for certain it will be sooner instead of later, because I'll be in Atlanta for Cartoon Network from Wednesday to Saturday. So on the one hand, we have the problem that once that comes, the novelty of having updated every day since my LiveJournal revival will be shattered, and so it shall fall into disrepair (or at the very least, comparative disrepair...I still get something of a kick out of semi-regular updating). But the more immediate problem that creates is that for the last couple days, even a week before this Atlanta trip of mine, I know that trip is coming, and I know what it will do to my updating schedule, and so a very large part of me - the part I like to call "lazy" - is very ready to say "screw it" early and become irresponsible even sooner. I'm very much trying to fight that impulse out of principle and out of the novelty I was talking about (which I suppose I'd like to preserve as long as possible).
I think I shall vow to keep daily updates until I leave for Atlanta, from there, I'll just do what feels right when I get back. Who knows, maybe I'll be in a mindset that brushes off that lost time and returns to demanding daily updates. Even if that happens, though, I'm sure I'll feel lazy or tired again on same day in the future, and Atlanta will be a perfect excuse to let those nights slide. So enjoy it while you can, people.
You KNOW you like the fact that my music right now is Barry White. You KNOW it!