Jul 21, 2007 01:40
i'm kind of an anomaly. my twin brother and i are pretty different people. we have pretty different tastes in music and movies. my friends say i listen to a lot of strange music. maybe THEY'RE strange and the music they listen to is strangely boring. alright maybe i'm strange. but i can't help it. in college i went through a couple different phases in my views with regards to my strangeness. at first i was too busy and happy enjoying my freedom away from home, free to do and be however i pleased, so i thought if people thought i was strange, it didnt matter cuz i was happy. later, i think maybe my newfound self-esteem and pride drove me to become even stranger. then as i started my numerous jobs and extracurriculars at ucla, meeting tons of new people and making lots of friends, i started to feel the need to be more normal to fit in better with more people. after some rough experiences along with some very pleasant ones, i realized two things: i can't please, get along with, and be friends with everyone because some people will think i'm strange no matter how friendly and, well, normal i try to be; and secondly, i am a lot happier when it no longer becomes my concern. all the pressures in college to network and whatnot ultimately led me to an extremely hectic lifestyle that made me unhappy. maybe i'm not meant to work with lots and lots of my peers. maybe i shouldnt have tried to do a million things at once. maybe i shouldnt have tried to fit in with so many different groups of people.
i am strange. i can't help it. it's like that little penguin in the movie happy feet. he can't help but be different but he's still a important member of the community -- just in a different way!
what a strange entry i'm writing. it just goes off in random directions with illogical, contrived, underdeveloped transitions. kinda like a poorly written film.
btw i didnt really like happy feet. i ddint even like ratatouille much. but i did love the wallace and gromit movie which i just watched. i think it's the best animated film i've seen in a long time. made me laugh. very witty. very innocent quirky humor. it's very british though so if youre not into that then you'll think it's strange. just like me! oh well!