"you could scare the flies off a manure truck"
so today i am a little bit up. dont know why. i always like working with tammy, but that couldnt be enough. who knows? the new influx (yes, influx) of interest could be. but doubtful. it causes surface happiness, but this is something deeper. in my core that area that was burning last week. it isnt burning any more, its bubbling, boiling. boiling with something that i cant quite put my finger on. but if something were to happen, i could reach a whole new level oh clouds. but adds are nothing will happen and that annoying little simmer in my core which i have learned to live with.