The most wonderful 3 1/2 days of my life
Caleb, man what does that boy do to me. Well Caleb came up here Wednesday he was here when I got home from work and we went to the movies. Dear Lord was I mean to him.... mainly because I was uncomfortable. So not much to say about Wednesday. Well I went to sleep and woke up at about 8 and started pacing my room praying for God to let me know if this is what I want and to give me strength and not to turn something away that could be my forever. So after about an hour of praying and pacing I went downstairs and I smiled and sat beside him and held his hand. We were watching the Macy's day parade. Everything started going so well. I was finally getting comfortable. So towards the afternoon me, caleb and jackie went to watch movies in my room and he just held me, I've never been held like that in my whole life. I knew then just how much he truly loves me. He would just stare in my eyes and tell me how beautiful I am and how much he in fact did love me. Made me seem to forget everyone that came into my life before that who told me the same thing because i knew he meant it and I know he loves and wants to marry me. Well after the movie we ate TURKEY hmmm mmm.. then went back upstairs to finish the movie and came down to watch Bruce Almighty. Then went back upstairs by ourselves. He gave me a massage. This boy is soooo good with his hands let me tell you what.. haha... I don't let many people touch me on my back not that theres anything wrong with it I am just very ticklish and my back is a foreground for that just by grazing a fingertip over it... ok enough about my secret tickle spot haha... but being with him was sooo incredible.. just laying in his arms... ~*SIGH*~ Then I had to get to bed early cause of work on Friday (which let me tell you was a joke) so I went to bed and told him to come in and wake me up at 7. So the very next morning he got up, came upstairs, and laid with me for and hour... just to lay and sorta sleep in his arms... I had butterflies in my stomach and a smile so wide!! Then I went to work, on my way to work he called and told me he missed me... I was like I've only been gone for 25 minutes.. haha... he's like I know. Yea talk about taking my breath away. Then I went to work which seemed like forever cause of the ungodly amounts of available time (no calls) and I wasn't even sent home til 5:30... yes what a joke. Then my parents picked me up and we all went out for dinner. He opened the van door for me each time i got it... haha he tries to get the door to other places but I don't let him... haha then we came back and just held eachother in my room and sorta not really watched X-men2. So I told him I was tired so I told him to come back upstairs at 8ish... so I went to sleep and again he pops in my room and gets in bed with me and just holds me and we kiss.. Unbelievable... he's such a sweetie... then he left.. he kissed me and told me he loves me and left. I wasn't sad though and I started thinking about it and was like I was always sad when someone else left and then I analyzed it to death like I always do and I came to the conclusion I wasn't sad because I know he's always going to be in my life and I will see him again. We're going to spend out lives together... thats why I am not as sad as I thought I was going to be. I mean I am starting to miss him and miss his touch but I don't have to wait long to be in his arm again! He's my angel and one day he will be my husband. I know this to be true. The Lord has shown me who my true soulmate is... Caleb.