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Something personal again... but will anyone read it? think of this as a fic?:D
ive been down lately, RL is really mean to me....
But today I saw something inside my cabinet that made me remember a lot of things. There was about 15 letters in the cabinet that i found... I almost forgot about those letters, maybe i receive those during my birthday when i was 3rd year, I am not sure though....But I reread one, it's from 'him'. I talked about him before when I was very active in lj and met a lot of friends here. I can't remember why i talked about him here. But he is a friend of mine since highschool, 12 years old i think. He isn't handsome, but probably the best guy in our class. He isn't the most intelligent but one of our honor students, he is a nerd but he's the type who could get along with everyone, he is my friend anyway...xDD He was the one who introduce me to metal music, we love talking about bands, online games, anything and everything.
I was in 3rd year when I realized that I love him. Someone in our class made me realize it. But I didn't confess. He got another female friend aside from me, that girl confessed to him and he never give an answer, I think that is why we got closer. It was complicated between him and her and the whole class got involved somehow. I think it was because i was the only one he could talked to where the other girl wouldn't be mentioned, i mean it was too awkward for him to talk about her. Then in the middle of the school year, the girl needs to migrate to another country. Everything about him and her became a larger issue. That was the reason why i never confessed.
We got really close, Who remember friendster? i remember that we need to be each others number 1 featured friend. We leave a lot of comments and testimonials in each other's account...xDD I remember sitting beside him after eating during lunch and break time because it is fun talking to him, I remember trying to cook 1 dish just because he challenge me to cook and because he wanted to taste it, I remember that we do not eat together during lunch since he eats at that canteen while i stay in the room though there were sometimes where he'll bring his food up to the room he'll force me to eat 'mongo' which i do not like before but now its is one of my favorite food, I someone who doesn't go out a lot but I started joining them whenever they go out to eat, I remember staying up until 2am every friday and saturday night because we chat a lot in yahoo messenger since there's no facebook at that time yet, I remember staying in the computer until 12 am for 3 christmas and new year so that we could greet each other. I remember him giving me chocolates for valentines day. During the first prom in 3rd year hs, a date/partner isn't really a must but the school provided a rose for every guy during the prom and it's every guy's choice who will they give that rose to, and yeah he have the rose to me.
Everything got awkward during 4th year highschool though.... And i was the problem. During summer I pretended to not open my yahoo account for a week. I wonder if he'll notice. I was a kid, a teenager who is in love so yeah i was stupid...xDD Of course he'll notice, we chat a lot anyway. Probably the reason why i did that was for him to miss me. I assumed a lot and during the first day of 4th year, i feel awkward and shy already. I stopped talking to him. I can't remember it but a lot happened before we started talking again, I remember getting jealous at someone, i never voiced out my jealousy but i remember hating that girl so much. I remember crying a lot because of him but i can't remember why. I also can't remember how we started talking again. But we talk again, I remember learning a song in piano because we both like it and he is a genius in music too, he can play a lot of instruments so i tried learning piano for him. He was also my partner in prom during 4th year. He is a computer genius too, he is the one who convinced me to take information technology as course and yes we went to the same school in college and took the same course. All my college friend knows him. He graduated first though, I was late for 1 year. We stopped talking since a year and a half ago, well i stopped talking to everyone i know in hs since a year and a half ago, I actually forgot about a lot of things in HS during those time that I am having a huge problem in thesis. I know that fell in love with him but I forget how great it was when i was in love with him. Well, he got a good career now and I am still loser...xDD
I felt good remembering it. I felt happy somehow though it was all in the past now.
After remembering all this, i just realize, what if he likes me too...Nah!...:DD
Oh! I forgot to mention what was in the letter that he gave me during 3rd year that made me remember all this.
"Salamat dahil lagi kang andyan para pasayahin ako.(Thank you because you are always there to make me happy)"
I am glad that somehow I made him happy.
Isn't it interesting yet stupid how long I become in love with him..xDD
Do I still love him?
All I love now is KAT-TUN and Kanjani8..xDDD
ive been down lately, RL is really mean to me....
But today I saw something inside my cabinet that made me remember a lot of things. There was about 15 letters in the cabinet that i found... I almost forgot about those letters, maybe i receive those during my birthday when i was 3rd year, I am not sure though....But I reread one, it's from 'him'. I talked about him before when I was very active in lj and met a lot of friends here. I can't remember why i talked about him here. But he is a friend of mine since highschool, 12 years old i think. He isn't handsome, but probably the best guy in our class. He isn't the most intelligent but one of our honor students, he is a nerd but he's the type who could get along with everyone, he is my friend anyway...xDD He was the one who introduce me to metal music, we love talking about bands, online games, anything and everything.
I was in 3rd year when I realized that I love him. Someone in our class made me realize it. But I didn't confess. He got another female friend aside from me, that girl confessed to him and he never give an answer, I think that is why we got closer. It was complicated between him and her and the whole class got involved somehow. I think it was because i was the only one he could talked to where the other girl wouldn't be mentioned, i mean it was too awkward for him to talk about her. Then in the middle of the school year, the girl needs to migrate to another country. Everything about him and her became a larger issue. That was the reason why i never confessed.
We got really close, Who remember friendster? i remember that we need to be each others number 1 featured friend. We leave a lot of comments and testimonials in each other's account...xDD I remember sitting beside him after eating during lunch and break time because it is fun talking to him, I remember trying to cook 1 dish just because he challenge me to cook and because he wanted to taste it, I remember that we do not eat together during lunch since he eats at that canteen while i stay in the room though there were sometimes where he'll bring his food up to the room he'll force me to eat 'mongo' which i do not like before but now its is one of my favorite food, I someone who doesn't go out a lot but I started joining them whenever they go out to eat, I remember staying up until 2am every friday and saturday night because we chat a lot in yahoo messenger since there's no facebook at that time yet, I remember staying in the computer until 12 am for 3 christmas and new year so that we could greet each other. I remember him giving me chocolates for valentines day. During the first prom in 3rd year hs, a date/partner isn't really a must but the school provided a rose for every guy during the prom and it's every guy's choice who will they give that rose to, and yeah he have the rose to me.
Everything got awkward during 4th year highschool though.... And i was the problem. During summer I pretended to not open my yahoo account for a week. I wonder if he'll notice. I was a kid, a teenager who is in love so yeah i was stupid...xDD Of course he'll notice, we chat a lot anyway. Probably the reason why i did that was for him to miss me. I assumed a lot and during the first day of 4th year, i feel awkward and shy already. I stopped talking to him. I can't remember it but a lot happened before we started talking again, I remember getting jealous at someone, i never voiced out my jealousy but i remember hating that girl so much. I remember crying a lot because of him but i can't remember why. I also can't remember how we started talking again. But we talk again, I remember learning a song in piano because we both like it and he is a genius in music too, he can play a lot of instruments so i tried learning piano for him. He was also my partner in prom during 4th year. He is a computer genius too, he is the one who convinced me to take information technology as course and yes we went to the same school in college and took the same course. All my college friend knows him. He graduated first though, I was late for 1 year. We stopped talking since a year and a half ago, well i stopped talking to everyone i know in hs since a year and a half ago, I actually forgot about a lot of things in HS during those time that I am having a huge problem in thesis. I know that fell in love with him but I forget how great it was when i was in love with him. Well, he got a good career now and I am still loser...xDD
I felt good remembering it. I felt happy somehow though it was all in the past now.
After remembering all this, i just realize, what if he likes me too...Nah!...:DD
Oh! I forgot to mention what was in the letter that he gave me during 3rd year that made me remember all this.
"Salamat dahil lagi kang andyan para pasayahin ako.(Thank you because you are always there to make me happy)"
I am glad that somehow I made him happy.
Isn't it interesting yet stupid how long I become in love with him..xDD
Do I still love him?
All I love now is KAT-TUN and Kanjani8..xDDD