Decisions
Decisions have to be made everyday off our life from as little as should i have breakfast? or Do i have my hair up or down today? To as big as do i move abroad?do i stay in this branch? do i change where i live!
All of these decisions have consequences, some not to bad others could be longer lasting. Well, i am one those people that cannot make a decision at all. I have half of my mind telling me one thing, the other side another. This leaves me bouncing around like a tennis ball in the middle.But thats the way i have made my life, so now i must decide the way to get myself out of it! But here i am gabbing on with a load of bubbles that i can put off,
Work have messed up my pay which isnt clever i feel like when i first left school thats how low my wages are this week!Not happy bout it but u get over it. I know look to see if CCL my old wrk will pay me on the date due, 27th but normally they pay me the friday previous n there is nothing in my account to show this at all.So i worry, as i have my new flat to pay for, my bed that callapsed the other day ( no naughty thoguhts) so ive forked out £409 fora king sze bed and mattress and storage n its gorgeous al worth it gta wait 2 weeks delivery though thats a prob.So at mo i feel like a poor person on my mattress on the floor not nice!But i can live with it until i get luxury on this new one hehe, now i am to look for duvet covers and everything else woohoo i love to go shopping! but i would go shopping if i had money in bank..ongoing vicious circle not good. Anyways today is another day.
Last night moo n woody were at mine n previously on the night i had gone to get dvds, i got bright young things,drumline, and spun. i watched spun. That must be the freakiest film i have ever watched! Lol! For detail please ask woody n moo as they watched it, i ended up falling asleep..I woke up at 1.30 a.am to find no lights on, telly off n nobody insight...shock wasnt the word i dnt even recall falling asleep! I go to bed have horrid dream consisting of needles n scary homeless ppl,i was worried tho i went bk to sleep, awoke at 3 am to only see darkness in my room. again iu felt lonely n didnt like it, with double height ceilings n me being on a mattress on the floor the seemed even furthur away!
I awake this morning finding it is 8.45 and i am to be in work for 9am eek! but i go there for 9.15 and still havent had my lunch yet so they cannot whinge! Heheh imm happy no as i have the door of my office open with a nice breeze and the sunshine smiling into the office, i feel so enlightened its unbelievable what a bit of sunshine can do!
Hope you are all as happy as i am at this moment !
Lots of love
Kaz
xxxx
All of these decisions have consequences, some not to bad others could be longer lasting. Well, i am one those people that cannot make a decision at all. I have half of my mind telling me one thing, the other side another. This leaves me bouncing around like a tennis ball in the middle.But thats the way i have made my life, so now i must decide the way to get myself out of it! But here i am gabbing on with a load of bubbles that i can put off,
Work have messed up my pay which isnt clever i feel like when i first left school thats how low my wages are this week!Not happy bout it but u get over it. I know look to see if CCL my old wrk will pay me on the date due, 27th but normally they pay me the friday previous n there is nothing in my account to show this at all.So i worry, as i have my new flat to pay for, my bed that callapsed the other day ( no naughty thoguhts) so ive forked out £409 fora king sze bed and mattress and storage n its gorgeous al worth it gta wait 2 weeks delivery though thats a prob.So at mo i feel like a poor person on my mattress on the floor not nice!But i can live with it until i get luxury on this new one hehe, now i am to look for duvet covers and everything else woohoo i love to go shopping! but i would go shopping if i had money in bank..ongoing vicious circle not good. Anyways today is another day.
Last night moo n woody were at mine n previously on the night i had gone to get dvds, i got bright young things,drumline, and spun. i watched spun. That must be the freakiest film i have ever watched! Lol! For detail please ask woody n moo as they watched it, i ended up falling asleep..I woke up at 1.30 a.am to find no lights on, telly off n nobody insight...shock wasnt the word i dnt even recall falling asleep! I go to bed have horrid dream consisting of needles n scary homeless ppl,i was worried tho i went bk to sleep, awoke at 3 am to only see darkness in my room. again iu felt lonely n didnt like it, with double height ceilings n me being on a mattress on the floor the seemed even furthur away!
I awake this morning finding it is 8.45 and i am to be in work for 9am eek! but i go there for 9.15 and still havent had my lunch yet so they cannot whinge! Heheh imm happy no as i have the door of my office open with a nice breeze and the sunshine smiling into the office, i feel so enlightened its unbelievable what a bit of sunshine can do!
Hope you are all as happy as i am at this moment !
Lots of love
Kaz
xxxx