daddy what did i do to deserve this?

[kaysaylane]

some days its fine.
the
screaming silenced.
its almost erie.

he rases his fist.
anger in
his eyes.
no love its scary.

we scream.
we yell.
almost as if we
were dancing.

so gone are the days
when i could say i love
you
without cowering behind my words.

to love you like a daughter
should.
and to feel the warmth of a father.
thats my only
longing.

the want subsided
by fear none other.
by you.

you
are the one
i love.
i hate.
i fear.

when did it all
change.
when did you decide
you almost hit me.

to be scared into
shock.
not knowing what to do.
my shelter attacked me

leaving me
helpless
all alone
no one to run to.

i feel trapped in this strange
place.
cant run.
cant hide.
cant confront.
all in
fear.

daddy,
what did i do to deserve this?
how did i lose your
love?