I sometimes get enjoyment out of flossing
Oh wow
so
that day on the waterfront- he mentioned that night. you know the one.
well
I brushed it off.
the other night
he mentioned it again
kinda brushed it off- but.. wondered about it
and tonight
once more.
that was it
the final straw
"why do you keep bringing up that night?"
"I dont know"
---
silence.
I wish there werent always so many distractions
so many things getting in the way
so many ...
doubts.
I wish we could go back
to that day in the stair well
the one I never told anyone about
with no eyes and no ears
it was just you and me
and ill never forget it
..
I mean
you were so different
you werent so outspoken
you werent so crazy and loud
you were quiet
and sweet
and even though
the things that were going on
were less than .. right.
everything seemed right.
and I dont know if you remember
but I remember
the 5 minutes in the car
on the way to your house
when I took you home
do you remember?
you got out of the car
and stood at my window
and talked to me afterwards
for like 2535 years
I was... surprised
or that time
we were walking
just walking
and talking
just talking
seems like when nobody else is around
everything about you is perfect
the guy in the stairwell
and outside my car window
it was the same guy I saw that day at the waterfront in peoria
sitting there- talking about the clouds like the people in movies do
and again that night.
you know the one.
oh that night.
another ill never forget.
but might need to
if im ever going to get through this
but hey
do you remember that class we had together last year
You know the one-
well
we always talked in that class
and one day we were studying together
and something came over me
I dont want to tak about that
and I know you dont either
but
that day was signifcant too
they all are
just as this one was
our talk today
was perfect
but unfortunately
what we want
is not
what we'll get
life is so disappointing.