(no subject)

[kaylamalany]

Looking back
it wasnt you
it wasnt that
it wasnt us
it was just 
the time to kill
the time to spend
the time to waste
the time to embrace
the time to taste
the time to find
someone to touch
someone to hope for
someone whose name
I could draw hearts around
something to look
forward to
to make my days
a little less average
someone to take
the pain I felt
and put it in
to kisses and poetry
but I got neither
I got ignored
and theres nothing that feels worse
than finding that the valentine
youd hoped would last forever
wouldnt last another week
when I opened myself to you
I opened myself to hurt
and now that youve proven
that you couldnt handle it
All I want to do
is close up those wounds
hide my bandaged heart
and hope that one day
I will find someone
who can do what you did
in a quieter, kinder
and more attractive way.
Heres hoping
that my future love
will be like you
in a better form
and heres hoping
that he and I
find the right place
at the right time
unlike you and me
and heres hoping
that he and i
can talk and share
and learn to care
unlike you and me.
we couldnt do it
we couldnt make it
and I dont think
I really give a shit
All Id like to say
is I hope the next one
is ten times better than you
and Id like to say
that I dont think
itll take much to find that.

heres to the past.
Heres to the future