ummm.yeah
i dont know wut to do ne more...im really confused and cameron is actually right........ FOR ONCE! im admitting it..i cant run away from my problems and hope they get better....im so afraid of everything...there are so many aspects of cameron that i love...but others...i hate...thats the problem....sumtimes he cant help it....but i dont like it onnneeee bit!...i cant get over that.....like the moods he has......we ALWAYS fight and i hate it...and we yell and scream and swear and call eachother names...and it gets really sad......cuz i know i love him...and thats not wut loves all about..i just need time ya know? and i feel like hes not really giving that to me..and i feel forced and controlled....and i HATE that feeling...idk i REALLY dont think this will work out....but ill at least think about it...but if i say no i dont wanna try...camerons gunna get madd at me yet again...and id want him to....cuz i still love him and that hurts wen he does that....idk wuts going on.....it soo dumb and i just need time...idkkkk