Oct 09, 2005 23:38
I can't believe it's October again. I remember Jackie and I getting ready with our costumes around homecoming last year. Where has the time gone?
It seems really funny to me how people are. I wish, for some reason, I could make them happy; but only they can do that. Aaron proves that point. When he decided to be happy, he became happy. He pretended to be confident and happy and before long he had a date.
Some people always seem to be happy. They lift the world up even when it's down. I used to be one of those people. I got the question often, why are you so happy? I shrugged and replied because I really have nothing to be sad about. It's funny to me the logic in that answer. Because sometimes now I get really depressed and people ask me why I'm so depressed, and I say because I really don't have anything to be happy about.
Chershire Puss, asked Alice. Which way ought I go from here? Well that depends a great deal on where you want to go, said the Cat. I don't really know, said Alice. Well then I guess it really doesn't matter which way you go, said the Cat.
I don't know. I wish someone would tell me what to do, The path I should go on to ultimately make me the happiest in life, but I know they can't . and I ask and ask and ask and no one will tell me. I just don't know what I want to do or how fast I want to get there or what really matters most to me. I think above all things I really want to be happy. I think that's all anyone really wants is to be happy and if you are happy, the more power to you. These thoughts wouldn't have even entered my head if I didn't have today off. If I didn't have today off I wouldn't stop and think. I feel sick.