dont ask, and i wont have to li(f)e.
the second day was even worse. i feel like....doing something. the something that i thought i could stop doing. the something that i know i shouldnt do, because its bad, and i have court in a few weeks and it wont go away that fast. and people will see. and then people will know. and i could. i could go do that something right now, and no one would care if i went and did that something at all, would they? no. they wouldnt. i thought, for a long time...that i had control over myself. but when it comes the something, the something that i really want to do right now...i dont have any control at all.