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[kaybee098]

why cant i sleep? im so restless, and im anxious...like i really am waiting for something. i dont know whats bothering. i dozed off at like 11, and i had a really bad dream. i was crowd surfing, wicked cool, and then i got up near the stage or whatever and suddenly people started pulling me back. and then it was like...violent. they were pulling me back under, and it hurt, and i was going crazy because i was so scared. and i looked up, and on the stage, someone was holding out their hand. and i was kicking wicked hard, trying to reach them, but i didnt even know who it was. and thats it. i dont remember the rest. it was crazy. and scary. if i go to a concert, whoever is with me, i hope you make sure i do NOT crowd surf.

god. i am insane.

hmm well. spencer, kaci, we need to do something. tomorrow (well, today actually) im painting a shed...but any of you are welcome to join me! hahaha. then sunday maybe my dad will show up, maybe not. aaannnd then...monday. spencers not working. atleast thats the impression i was under. but kaci is leaving teusday for ny. baah. i dont really see how that makes it so we cant spend a couple hours together...but whatever. well see. maybe well just kidnap spencer and kaci will have to stay to make sure the police dont find us...cuz we know ill find a way to fuck something up. haha.

mmm. gonna go watch....something. on tv. a movie maybe. god i wish i could sleep.