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i. am. such. a. stupid. bitch.
i was so mean yesterday. i really was. it was awful. I was awful.
i dont know why i have to be like that. i just dont get it. i dont know how i can possibly have any friends, how anyone puts up with me. i get so mad, for no reason at all, and i just dont understand why.
im always in a bad mood. and i think im starting to figure it out. i think i know the reason why, but its so horrible i cant even type it. its so mean. i hate myself. i really do. i wish i could be anyone else, so then i could hate meghan emmons properly. maybe....just maybe...my dad and mike g have the right idea. it could be.
spencer, kaci, lisa, calah...im so sorry. ill understand if you never want to talk to me ever ever again, because im such a horrible person and such and even horribler friend. and yes i said horribler.
well. hmm. i guess i should go comtemplate suicide for a while. then maybe...running off to the circus to be the worlds fattest, stupidest, meanest, ugliest, dumbest bitch ever. ever.
im so sad.
i was so mean yesterday. i really was. it was awful. I was awful.
i dont know why i have to be like that. i just dont get it. i dont know how i can possibly have any friends, how anyone puts up with me. i get so mad, for no reason at all, and i just dont understand why.
im always in a bad mood. and i think im starting to figure it out. i think i know the reason why, but its so horrible i cant even type it. its so mean. i hate myself. i really do. i wish i could be anyone else, so then i could hate meghan emmons properly. maybe....just maybe...my dad and mike g have the right idea. it could be.
spencer, kaci, lisa, calah...im so sorry. ill understand if you never want to talk to me ever ever again, because im such a horrible person and such and even horribler friend. and yes i said horribler.
well. hmm. i guess i should go comtemplate suicide for a while. then maybe...running off to the circus to be the worlds fattest, stupidest, meanest, ugliest, dumbest bitch ever. ever.
im so sad.