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I escaped from Moonbase Kawaiixkg!
I killed Swtlilqtj the nutrivend drinks machine, Drownedinsugar the tribble and Xxxarc Angelxxx the cleaning droid.
I salvaged the Log of the USS Xmorninqstarx, a Z-OFFI-2500 supercomputer and 43 galacticredits.
Score: 168
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Just something random since I saw it in Kiki's LJ. Seems like I beat Kiki's score. :3
Anyhow.. I just wanted to thank CICI for her comment on my last entry... Made me feel slightly better... Though I'm still losing myself.. I cried like hell last night.. After I hung up off the phone with him--wait.. A bit before that.. I couldn't hold it in much more--since I was already crying in the first place.. After we hung up, I tried to stop myself from crying, but I just couldn't stop. I had to calm down, since I didn't want anyone in my house to hear me crying. [Hopefully no one did..] After I realized I wasn't going to stop crying any time soon, I jumped into the showers and took a nice hot shower to try to calm down. After about a hour in the shower, my crying calmed down some--still crying, obviously.. Jose didn't do anything wrong.. It's just me.. I can't handle being away from him, I feel like I'd go insane.. I know the saying goes, "If you really loved someone, you can handle the wait." No, I love him so damn much, that I can't STAND it, even not talking to him for a day. It kills me. My mood swings is getting worst.. I'm starting to take it out on him, getting angry when it's not even what I wish to do.. I love him.. Hopefully he knows that, reguardless of my harsh and cold actions I do towards him.. No matter how many times I tell him I wish for a break, or even say I don't want to talk to him. It's really the other way around.. There's something wrong with me, I know there is.. I learned that when I'm like this, I just wished to be either understood by someone, and be handled a certain way.. Although it isn't easy, since once I'm like this, I start to push away everyone around me and drown myself in sorrow, alone..
Maybe I do need that time away.. And I'll be doing that, starting now. I've said it so many times, but never had the power to do it. This time... Without any of you stopping me, I'll go away for awhile.. Will I be back..? I don't even know... I really don't.. I'm sorry everyone... I'm sorry, Jose.... You must be upset at me..