A full explanation
So, I hate to leave anyone hanging who actually reads this (like...Fey...I think that's it D: ). To clarify, we don't hate each other, there is no malice, no negative feelings what-so-ever. We still care and love each other, it's just that we have different paths in life. This is our splitting of paths. Yes, I'm sad about it. But at the same time I'm hopeful to...cuz now I'm on a mission to find somebody who total adores me. Not that I'm saying Ed didn't, it's just...there was always something that was kind of off. I think I just ignored it because I was like "Nobody is perfect". I don't need to settle anymore.
At the same time, I don't want to keep in contact with him because I don't want this to happen again and again...oh sure, he changes his mind and wants to come back again in 6 months? Not happening. Absolutely not. I already took him and his family, any connections TO him, off of Facebook and am going into Verizon to have his phone cut off at the end of the month. That way there is absolutely NO connection at all. If he tries to contact me, will I respond? Sure, but only as a friend. I will not allow myself to be hurt anymore over this relationship...I've already invested 7 years of my life into it. It is time to move on.
Emotional wise, I am doing okay. Yesterday was the first day that I felt normal, felt myself, all week long. I feel like I can rebound from this fairly quickly. In addition, all my goals (including paying off my debt and buying a house) seem much closer since I don't have to support anyone else.
He is going to find out in the next few days if/when he gets to go home. His great grandfather turned 90 this year and they were looking for somebody to live with or near him to keep an eye on him. Ed will have a car and will probably be able to find work relatively easy. I am happy for him.
Ed, if you're reading this, I'm not mad at you in any way. Just letting my feelings out. You will go on to succeed and you'll be with your family again.
At the same time, I don't want to keep in contact with him because I don't want this to happen again and again...oh sure, he changes his mind and wants to come back again in 6 months? Not happening. Absolutely not. I already took him and his family, any connections TO him, off of Facebook and am going into Verizon to have his phone cut off at the end of the month. That way there is absolutely NO connection at all. If he tries to contact me, will I respond? Sure, but only as a friend. I will not allow myself to be hurt anymore over this relationship...I've already invested 7 years of my life into it. It is time to move on.
Emotional wise, I am doing okay. Yesterday was the first day that I felt normal, felt myself, all week long. I feel like I can rebound from this fairly quickly. In addition, all my goals (including paying off my debt and buying a house) seem much closer since I don't have to support anyone else.
He is going to find out in the next few days if/when he gets to go home. His great grandfather turned 90 this year and they were looking for somebody to live with or near him to keep an eye on him. Ed will have a car and will probably be able to find work relatively easy. I am happy for him.
Ed, if you're reading this, I'm not mad at you in any way. Just letting my feelings out. You will go on to succeed and you'll be with your family again.