paranoia?
So its well documented I have this fear at work of getting robbed. So Ive tried to take precautions like count money outside of the view of people.
Tonight, I got a harassing phone call. Guy was basically looking for phone sex. I hung up, but it left me feeling rather paranoid cause the first thing he asked was how late we were open, and I was honest.
Then, to top it off, I think someone was following me home. I swear the person pulled out of the Rec Center behind me and followed me all the way to the park near our house, where he turned off. I continued to the complex. If he hadnt have turned off, I was going to loop around and go to an all night restaurant downhill from the police station.
And my paranoia isnt helped by the kid I work with. Its especially hard when Steve says stuff like, "Our managers arent here ... its just the two of us at the front desk." I mean, invite trouble much?
I left a note for Brett about the call. Not sure whether to tell him I felt like I was followed or not. Im not positive I was followed, but I really think I was.
So Im left wondering how to handle all of this. My instinct is to tell Brett that I just cant hack working these night shifts. That makes me feel like a whiner. And I have to admit, the free membership to the gym, even though Im not using it at the moment, is kind of nice.
I talked to Adrian about it, though, and he said if I feel like I dont want to work there anymore, I dont have to ... but what I do have to do is find something else to work instead. He doesnt want me sitting around the house three days out of five -- the average of what hes gone these days; if I had known this job would be so much travel, I might have asked him to look locally, but its too late now.
And looking for a new job ... given all the time I took off due to illness from my current job, coupled with the fact Ive only been there since August ... I dont think Brett is going to exactly give me a glowing recommendation. "Well, she freaked out working at nights, and she took a lot of time off due to illness," is the truth, but it sounds pretty shitty to a prospective employer.
Im left feeling like I have to gut it out until I get the MOT cert. Then I can actually find a job based on my skills, and maybe by then, Ill have left Brett with a better impression of me. I admit, the new procedure of counting the money out of view made me feel better about that part of it. The call really did throw me.
Anyway, Im cold and tired, and I have an MRI to deal with tomorrow, so Im off to bed ... maybe to read a bit first as Adrian suggested elsewhere. It might clear my head a bit so I can sleep as I feel rather wound up at the moment.