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I wanna be back in Toronto.
actually no, I lied. I wanna be all over Canada right now, on the road trip that i planned two years ago.
I want to be riding a fucking horse.
or walking through the rockies again.
or standing on the beach of the ocean in Campbell River, picking up pretty shells.
or just fucking SOMETHING.
I hate wanting to talk to someone really badly and then not having anything to say to them besides "hey whats up".
and i hate thinking you don't care about a person only to be reminded once you see them for the first time in a while that you fucking love them.
and then they go away and you cant talk to them.
or when you have to sleep ALONE in a massive fucking bed on your 19th birthday.
so yes, im bitter as hell. and upset and angry and hurt and all that other shit. but only on the inside because i can't get mad at people for having things to do.
Or, you know, cuddling with my best friend instead of me.
actually no, I lied. I wanna be all over Canada right now, on the road trip that i planned two years ago.
I want to be riding a fucking horse.
or walking through the rockies again.
or standing on the beach of the ocean in Campbell River, picking up pretty shells.
or just fucking SOMETHING.
I hate wanting to talk to someone really badly and then not having anything to say to them besides "hey whats up".
and i hate thinking you don't care about a person only to be reminded once you see them for the first time in a while that you fucking love them.
and then they go away and you cant talk to them.
or when you have to sleep ALONE in a massive fucking bed on your 19th birthday.
so yes, im bitter as hell. and upset and angry and hurt and all that other shit. but only on the inside because i can't get mad at people for having things to do.
Or, you know, cuddling with my best friend instead of me.