"It's impossible to die without someone who cares about you blaming themselves" -AW
He's right. If he did I would blame myself. I didn't have to fall for his best friend, I didn't have to break up with him so badly (in the worst way possible, you dont even know), and I could have been better at cheering him up. It's my fault he's like this and if he dies it'll be my fault too.
Know something? He's really right. Not just for himself. That would apply to me too, I think. I think if I really did commit suicide, someone would blame themselves for something, even though they didn't do it, I did.
How can I have been on both sides of this same problem and I'm no help at all? I know what it's like to feel like a burden and to feel like the world would be better without you. I also know what it's like to know that person is wrong, that they're amazing and that they mean so fucking much to you and a lot of other people. How am I so useless?