I'm okay, I promise
On Monday, I was supposed to do a myriad of errands; call the maintenance company and ask them about renovating the apartments (my kitchen, bathroom, and cupboards need renewing, the panels between the floor and wall are falling apart); visit the pharmacy and ask if my imported anti- psychotic medicine prescription and permission are still valid; visit the library to print a couple of pictures to hang on my collage wall; mail a few greeting cards; go to movies to see The Miseducation of Cameron Post; and go to the gym. Instead, I just lied in bed all day, feeling sorry for myself.
In the evening, about at six o'clock, I managed to get up. I took a shower and did the 12- step Korean skincare regiment, even if I was supposed to do it on Tuesday. I have taken up the habit of doing the skincare regiment twice a week from now on.
I went out for errands, and visited the pharmacy. I learned that the prescription and the permission are still valid, and they ordered a new batch of the medicine.
I also went to the library and printed two of the pictures. When I went back home, I taped them on my wall.
On Tuesday, I didn't feel any better. I just lied in bed, thought about how pathetic I am, and almost wept. Suavecita and Odessa visited me, and Suavecita brought me a box of thin mint cookies.
I was supposed to visit Girls' House and give Finland's first female president, who is also the founding member of Girls' House, a Christmas card.
I managed to visit my mother, she gave me the weekly allowance.
I bought three liters of cashew- nut milk.
I was thinking of heading back to the shopping mall to buy something else, but it was already time to take my evening medicine. I also had sweet potato fries for supper.
I felt weird and wobbly, so I took a depression shower to calm myself, and then I went to bed.
On Wednesday, I felt slightly better. My care worker came for the weekly appointment, and I managed to wash the dishes, iron the laundry, and wash two loads of laundry.
Me and Mirette went to the grand opening of a huge, modern library downtown. I got to eat a wonderful, scrumptious slice of focaccia, and also take part in a photo shoot where I wore Victorian dresses. I will post the photos once I receive them in my e- mail.
After the opening, I traveled back home and went to a supermarket where I bought a doormat and a bottle of dish- washing liquid.
Once back home, I noticed that I had received a Christmas card in the mail.
In the evening, I started having the usual evening anxiety. This time I felt like panicking, even if I didn't have an actual panic attack. I had to quit everything I was doing and go to bed, because I didn't feel like suffering from anxiety all night.
Tomorrow will be the Independence Day in Finland. I will visit my parents for the day.
On Friday, I will receive money. I will order a resistance band from Wish.com, and some nature- friendly band- aids from PatchStrips.com.
I will buy oil- based facial cleaner and face serum from the shopping mall, along with wound disinfectant from the pharmacy. I will also buy Christmas cards for friends whose pre- Christmas party I am going to attend on Saturday.
In the evening Mirette will come for a sleepover. We will go to the sauna, I will wash my hair and do the 12- step Korean skincare regiment.
On Saturday, I will do the usual housework. Me and my friends are going to attend Sadie and her fiancee Jerry's pre- Christmas party.
On Sunday, I will visit my parents. I will take the plastic waste to recycling on the way.
I will call my granny. My dad will give me the weekly allowance.
In the evening, about at six o'clock, I managed to get up. I took a shower and did the 12- step Korean skincare regiment, even if I was supposed to do it on Tuesday. I have taken up the habit of doing the skincare regiment twice a week from now on.
I went out for errands, and visited the pharmacy. I learned that the prescription and the permission are still valid, and they ordered a new batch of the medicine.
I also went to the library and printed two of the pictures. When I went back home, I taped them on my wall.
On Tuesday, I didn't feel any better. I just lied in bed, thought about how pathetic I am, and almost wept. Suavecita and Odessa visited me, and Suavecita brought me a box of thin mint cookies.
I was supposed to visit Girls' House and give Finland's first female president, who is also the founding member of Girls' House, a Christmas card.
I managed to visit my mother, she gave me the weekly allowance.
I bought three liters of cashew- nut milk.
I was thinking of heading back to the shopping mall to buy something else, but it was already time to take my evening medicine. I also had sweet potato fries for supper.
I felt weird and wobbly, so I took a depression shower to calm myself, and then I went to bed.
On Wednesday, I felt slightly better. My care worker came for the weekly appointment, and I managed to wash the dishes, iron the laundry, and wash two loads of laundry.
Me and Mirette went to the grand opening of a huge, modern library downtown. I got to eat a wonderful, scrumptious slice of focaccia, and also take part in a photo shoot where I wore Victorian dresses. I will post the photos once I receive them in my e- mail.
After the opening, I traveled back home and went to a supermarket where I bought a doormat and a bottle of dish- washing liquid.
Once back home, I noticed that I had received a Christmas card in the mail.
In the evening, I started having the usual evening anxiety. This time I felt like panicking, even if I didn't have an actual panic attack. I had to quit everything I was doing and go to bed, because I didn't feel like suffering from anxiety all night.
Tomorrow will be the Independence Day in Finland. I will visit my parents for the day.
On Friday, I will receive money. I will order a resistance band from Wish.com, and some nature- friendly band- aids from PatchStrips.com.
I will buy oil- based facial cleaner and face serum from the shopping mall, along with wound disinfectant from the pharmacy. I will also buy Christmas cards for friends whose pre- Christmas party I am going to attend on Saturday.
In the evening Mirette will come for a sleepover. We will go to the sauna, I will wash my hair and do the 12- step Korean skincare regiment.
On Saturday, I will do the usual housework. Me and my friends are going to attend Sadie and her fiancee Jerry's pre- Christmas party.
On Sunday, I will visit my parents. I will take the plastic waste to recycling on the way.
I will call my granny. My dad will give me the weekly allowance.