Fri- yay!
Last night I had a dream where I visited the town where I was treated in the mental hospital. I walked through the streets, trying to recall my memories, but the town had changed a lot.
Just before I woke up, I had a dream where I was at my home; Eleclya and Suavecita were there as well, and so were some other visitors. I noticed that I had received an Etsy order, an old VHS tape, and then I read that it was supposed to be delivered to Tijuana but had ended up in my address.
I woke up early but got up at noon. I took my morning medicine, took a shower and made myself as representable as I could.
I ate a decent breakfast; a bowl of oatmeal porridge, a clove of garlic, two cherry tomatoes, and a leaf of kale.
I logged in to my online bank account and paid my monthly gym membership fee, and then I left. I went to an ATM machine to withdraw cash and traveled downtown.
I was on a train when I remembered that I had forgotten my smartphone at home, so I took a train back home and fetched it.
I had an appointment with my favorite beautician at two o’clock in the afternoon.
I had my eyebrows plucked and dyed. The shape of my brows was fine, but the color was too dark. I was a bit disappointed but didn’t feel like mentioning it. Well, at least I know that from now on, I will dye them a lighter color. And at least the color will fade after a few washes.
I went to a thrift store and bought two t- shirts; one pink and green striped Marimekko shirt, and a black and white Ramones fan t- shirt.
I traveled back home and went to a candy shop to buy a box of strawberry- flavored chocolate truffles. I know that I have promised to lay off chocolate, but I needed something to cheer myself up.
Once back home, I went to the sauna. I did the 12- step Korean skincare regiment; at some point I should purchase the oil- based cleaner and the face serum.
Later that evening, I took my evening medicine, brushed my teeth, and sprayed Nasonex into both of my nostrils. I think the nasal spray is working, my nose no longer itches and runs.
I have been in a bad mood all day because my delusions have been unusually bothersome, and I don’t even know why.
I am also having a crisis with the way I look; I wish I was prettier, and I also wish I could somehow shake off about 25 kilograms of my weight. Right now, I weigh 80 kilograms, and according to BMI, my ideal weight would be 55 kilograms.
After the holidays are over, I am going to start dieting; go to the gym once a week, go to the swimming pool also once a week, do stretches and exercises every day.
I am not doing it out of self- hatred, but out of self- love; I need to exercise in order to fight my depression and anxiety, and to keep my body healthy.
My hair looks like spider’s web, it’s so frail and thin. When I was a teenager, I used to have thick, lush hair; but considering how many different ailments I had growing up and how many different medicines I have had to take, it’s no wonder that my hair has grown brittle.
I have also decided to ditch using fresh coconut milk because my mother told me that it raises your cholesterol. From now on, I will use cashew milk.
Just before I woke up, I had a dream where I was at my home; Eleclya and Suavecita were there as well, and so were some other visitors. I noticed that I had received an Etsy order, an old VHS tape, and then I read that it was supposed to be delivered to Tijuana but had ended up in my address.
I woke up early but got up at noon. I took my morning medicine, took a shower and made myself as representable as I could.
I ate a decent breakfast; a bowl of oatmeal porridge, a clove of garlic, two cherry tomatoes, and a leaf of kale.
I logged in to my online bank account and paid my monthly gym membership fee, and then I left. I went to an ATM machine to withdraw cash and traveled downtown.
I was on a train when I remembered that I had forgotten my smartphone at home, so I took a train back home and fetched it.
I had an appointment with my favorite beautician at two o’clock in the afternoon.
I had my eyebrows plucked and dyed. The shape of my brows was fine, but the color was too dark. I was a bit disappointed but didn’t feel like mentioning it. Well, at least I know that from now on, I will dye them a lighter color. And at least the color will fade after a few washes.
I went to a thrift store and bought two t- shirts; one pink and green striped Marimekko shirt, and a black and white Ramones fan t- shirt.
I traveled back home and went to a candy shop to buy a box of strawberry- flavored chocolate truffles. I know that I have promised to lay off chocolate, but I needed something to cheer myself up.
Once back home, I went to the sauna. I did the 12- step Korean skincare regiment; at some point I should purchase the oil- based cleaner and the face serum.
Later that evening, I took my evening medicine, brushed my teeth, and sprayed Nasonex into both of my nostrils. I think the nasal spray is working, my nose no longer itches and runs.
I have been in a bad mood all day because my delusions have been unusually bothersome, and I don’t even know why.
I am also having a crisis with the way I look; I wish I was prettier, and I also wish I could somehow shake off about 25 kilograms of my weight. Right now, I weigh 80 kilograms, and according to BMI, my ideal weight would be 55 kilograms.
After the holidays are over, I am going to start dieting; go to the gym once a week, go to the swimming pool also once a week, do stretches and exercises every day.
I am not doing it out of self- hatred, but out of self- love; I need to exercise in order to fight my depression and anxiety, and to keep my body healthy.
My hair looks like spider’s web, it’s so frail and thin. When I was a teenager, I used to have thick, lush hair; but considering how many different ailments I had growing up and how many different medicines I have had to take, it’s no wonder that my hair has grown brittle.
I have also decided to ditch using fresh coconut milk because my mother told me that it raises your cholesterol. From now on, I will use cashew milk.