Hello anxiety, my old friend
Like I mentioned in my last entry, I had a sleepover at my parents’ home. It’s a tradition that when my father is away on a vacation (this time he has flown to Canary Islands), I will go to my parents’ home for a sleepover to keep my mother company. I slept on my old bed, in my old room.
I slept very well and had another dream about geocaching, if I remember correctly. I seem to have those dreams more often that I have the summer cottage dreams.
I woke up early but continued sleeping. I got up when my mother told me to get up, it was about at eight o’clock in the morning (8:00 am).
I took my morning medicine with chocolate- flavored oat milk, got dressed into yesterday’s clothes, washed the sleep out of my eyes and dabbed lotion on my face. I wondered why I continued looking like I had had a depression nap, no matter how much I use different lotions on my face and curl my eyelashes. I also wonder why I have reddish- gray wrinkly rings around my eyes, I have been using eye cream for months now. I should get something more effective.
For breakfast I had oatmeal porridge with frozen blueberries and drank coffee.
Me and my mother left at the same time. Mom withdrew some cash at the ATM machine and gave me 60 euros.
I went to the local supermarket and bought a reusable coffee filter for Eleclya. I also noticed a Christmas wreath that didn’t cost too much, I bought one as well. I also bought jelly beans for Eleclya; I once ate all of her jelly beans and chocolate truffles in a fit of anxiety, and I was going to make amends.
I traveled back to my home town on a bus. I went to the shopping mall and visited a candy shop to buy a box of strawberry- flavored chocolate truffles for Eleclya.
I also visited a stationery shop and bought every single one of December’s birthday and name- day cards and ten postage stamps.
Once back home, I noticed that the air inside smelled bad. Eleclya was still sleeping.
I gave the jelly beans and chocolate truffles to Eleclya, put the coffee filter into the coffee maker, hung the wreath on my door and started working on the greeting cards. I managed to fill them out pretty well, except when I accidentally tore one postage stamp in two, oh well.
I changed into clean clothes and put on some jewelry.
I took my keeper out and disinfected it by popping it to a boiling pot. I decided that this month’s period is over.
Suavecita came for a visit, she brought some food for Eleclya. We ate veggie lasagna and drank coffee, after that Suavecita and Eleclya went to a sushi bar at the shopping mall.
I called my financial worker. I asked her how much debt I have to pay off, she said it’s something like seven thousand euros (7,000 €) and it’s growing because of the interest rate. And I also learned that she still hasn’t started paying them off, not until next year.
I was mighty disappointed, and I know that my mother is going to be absolutely furious when she learns about it. But then again, I am all Zen about everything. I am going to keep calm and carry on. I am not so sure about my mother.
I finished knitting one of the quilt squares, tidied up my home, and watched Emo: The Musical on Netflix. Then I went out for my own errands.
I went to the supermarket and bought three packages of pocket- sized paper tissue boxes and two liters of fresh coconut milk. Then I went to the pharmacy to pick up three packages of my prescribed medicine, and a prescribed nasal spray named Nasonex for my constantly itchy and runny nose. I am supposed to use it every evening, and spray two times into each nostril.
I went back home, put everything to their rightful places, dealt the pills into both of my Dosetts, and started knitting a new quilt square.
I have a weird feeling at my midriff, like there’s something pressing on my lower back and something weighing my stomach down. I did some stretches and exercises to ease the feeling.
My stomach feels like jelly, I guess I have gained a bit weight. I need to start losing weight, for the sole reason because I love my body.
Later today Eleclya and Odessa came over. Odessa gave me a Christmas card, it’s the first I have received this year.
After they left, I continued knitting a new quilt square. I noticed that my nose started itching violently, it might be because of the fibers in the knitting yarn.
About at eight o’clock in the evening (8:00 pm) I took my evening medicine and sprayed two squirts of Nasonex into both of my nostrils.
I went to bed straight away, because I didn’t have anything else to do. I took along my laptop and smartphone.
I tried to book an appointment for a flu shot, but there weren’t any free appointments.
I went through all the pages I have liked on Facebook, and unliked the ones that I don’t like anymore.
I didn’t feel anxious until nine o’clock in the evening. I decided to make some French fries to cheer myself up, so I didn’t have to go to bed with an empty stomach.
Tomorrow I will have an appointment at the psychiatric clinic at two o’clock in the afternoon, I will meet my physical therapist.
As for the rest of the day, I need to mail a couple of greeting cards, and perhaps visit a museum for once.
On Friday I will receive money. I will pay my monthly gym membership fee, my Spotify Premium and Microsoft Word subscription, and a commission to a friend. I will also order a gift for a friend from Wish.com.
I will have an appointment with my favorite beautician, I will have my eyebrows plucked and dyed.
After that, I will visit another supermarket and buy a strainer I can use when cooking pasta. I also need to buy a gift for a friend.
In the evening I will go to the sauna, wash my hair and do the 12- step Korean skincare regiment.
On Saturday, I will tidy up my apartment like every weekend. I will replace the towels, take the sheets off my bed, and wash them. I will also take the blanket, pillow, and mattress to the balcony, and bring them back inside in the evening, hoover the mattress, and then put fresh sheets into it. I will do it every weekend from now on.
On Sunday, I will go see my parents. My father will return from his vacation late in the evening, so my mother will give me the weekly allowance. I will spend it on groceries.
I slept very well and had another dream about geocaching, if I remember correctly. I seem to have those dreams more often that I have the summer cottage dreams.
I woke up early but continued sleeping. I got up when my mother told me to get up, it was about at eight o’clock in the morning (8:00 am).
I took my morning medicine with chocolate- flavored oat milk, got dressed into yesterday’s clothes, washed the sleep out of my eyes and dabbed lotion on my face. I wondered why I continued looking like I had had a depression nap, no matter how much I use different lotions on my face and curl my eyelashes. I also wonder why I have reddish- gray wrinkly rings around my eyes, I have been using eye cream for months now. I should get something more effective.
For breakfast I had oatmeal porridge with frozen blueberries and drank coffee.
Me and my mother left at the same time. Mom withdrew some cash at the ATM machine and gave me 60 euros.
I went to the local supermarket and bought a reusable coffee filter for Eleclya. I also noticed a Christmas wreath that didn’t cost too much, I bought one as well. I also bought jelly beans for Eleclya; I once ate all of her jelly beans and chocolate truffles in a fit of anxiety, and I was going to make amends.
I traveled back to my home town on a bus. I went to the shopping mall and visited a candy shop to buy a box of strawberry- flavored chocolate truffles for Eleclya.
I also visited a stationery shop and bought every single one of December’s birthday and name- day cards and ten postage stamps.
Once back home, I noticed that the air inside smelled bad. Eleclya was still sleeping.
I gave the jelly beans and chocolate truffles to Eleclya, put the coffee filter into the coffee maker, hung the wreath on my door and started working on the greeting cards. I managed to fill them out pretty well, except when I accidentally tore one postage stamp in two, oh well.
I changed into clean clothes and put on some jewelry.
I took my keeper out and disinfected it by popping it to a boiling pot. I decided that this month’s period is over.
Suavecita came for a visit, she brought some food for Eleclya. We ate veggie lasagna and drank coffee, after that Suavecita and Eleclya went to a sushi bar at the shopping mall.
I called my financial worker. I asked her how much debt I have to pay off, she said it’s something like seven thousand euros (7,000 €) and it’s growing because of the interest rate. And I also learned that she still hasn’t started paying them off, not until next year.
I was mighty disappointed, and I know that my mother is going to be absolutely furious when she learns about it. But then again, I am all Zen about everything. I am going to keep calm and carry on. I am not so sure about my mother.
I finished knitting one of the quilt squares, tidied up my home, and watched Emo: The Musical on Netflix. Then I went out for my own errands.
I went to the supermarket and bought three packages of pocket- sized paper tissue boxes and two liters of fresh coconut milk. Then I went to the pharmacy to pick up three packages of my prescribed medicine, and a prescribed nasal spray named Nasonex for my constantly itchy and runny nose. I am supposed to use it every evening, and spray two times into each nostril.
I went back home, put everything to their rightful places, dealt the pills into both of my Dosetts, and started knitting a new quilt square.
I have a weird feeling at my midriff, like there’s something pressing on my lower back and something weighing my stomach down. I did some stretches and exercises to ease the feeling.
My stomach feels like jelly, I guess I have gained a bit weight. I need to start losing weight, for the sole reason because I love my body.
Later today Eleclya and Odessa came over. Odessa gave me a Christmas card, it’s the first I have received this year.
After they left, I continued knitting a new quilt square. I noticed that my nose started itching violently, it might be because of the fibers in the knitting yarn.
About at eight o’clock in the evening (8:00 pm) I took my evening medicine and sprayed two squirts of Nasonex into both of my nostrils.
I went to bed straight away, because I didn’t have anything else to do. I took along my laptop and smartphone.
I tried to book an appointment for a flu shot, but there weren’t any free appointments.
I went through all the pages I have liked on Facebook, and unliked the ones that I don’t like anymore.
I didn’t feel anxious until nine o’clock in the evening. I decided to make some French fries to cheer myself up, so I didn’t have to go to bed with an empty stomach.
Tomorrow I will have an appointment at the psychiatric clinic at two o’clock in the afternoon, I will meet my physical therapist.
As for the rest of the day, I need to mail a couple of greeting cards, and perhaps visit a museum for once.
On Friday I will receive money. I will pay my monthly gym membership fee, my Spotify Premium and Microsoft Word subscription, and a commission to a friend. I will also order a gift for a friend from Wish.com.
I will have an appointment with my favorite beautician, I will have my eyebrows plucked and dyed.
After that, I will visit another supermarket and buy a strainer I can use when cooking pasta. I also need to buy a gift for a friend.
In the evening I will go to the sauna, wash my hair and do the 12- step Korean skincare regiment.
On Saturday, I will tidy up my apartment like every weekend. I will replace the towels, take the sheets off my bed, and wash them. I will also take the blanket, pillow, and mattress to the balcony, and bring them back inside in the evening, hoover the mattress, and then put fresh sheets into it. I will do it every weekend from now on.
On Sunday, I will go see my parents. My father will return from his vacation late in the evening, so my mother will give me the weekly allowance. I will spend it on groceries.