Why do I continue feeling this way?
On Tuesday morning, I had some pretty nice dreams. I was rudely woken up when my mother called me approximately at 11:21 am and asked if I am coming over at all; she was going to give me the weekly allowance. I got up right away, took my morning medicine and antibiotics, and got dressed into a white shirt and wine- red corduroys.
Fortunately, the bus arrived right away. I could have walked, but I didn’t have enough spoons for walking.
I met my mother on the street right after I got off the bus. If I would have gotten late, she would have already gone for her own errands.
She gave me a crisp 20 euro bill, and I left after that.
I took a bus back to my home town and went to spend that money. I bought three cartons of milk, a box of assorted mint chocolates, and something else I already forgot.
I went back home, put everything to their rightful places, ate a whole boxful of chocolates and made some coffee.
I got a sudden urge of energy; I took a shower and made myself as pretty as I could. I also put on one of my prettiest outfits.
I felt like I was already cured of the flu, so I decided to go to Twinkle café.
At first, I went to the supermarket and bought a bottle of iced coffee, like I had promised not to do. All the trains were late, so I took a bus downtown and then a tram.
Once at the café, I felt better even if I threw up once.
After I left, I traveled back to the city center. I visited a few shops and felt devastated about how I am never going to afford anything.
I bought a smoothie and traveled back home a longer way, through an urbane adventure.
On Wednesday, my friend Suavecita came to visit me, she and Eleclya were going to a bread line. I stayed home, feeling sad and angry for no reason at all.
I had to pop to the supermarket to buy milk for our coffees.
In the evening, I went to the knitting group. I was late, and once I made it to the culture center, a man harassed me.
Once at the knitting group, the librarian who was reading the book chided me for helping myself to the coffee and cookies. She told me I was supposed to get them only after she was done reading the book.
Once back home, I felt devastatingly depressed and self- hatey.
Today wasn’t any better; I got up late, felt depressed out of my mind, ran out of milk and couldn’t afford to buy more.
I’m trying to figure out the reason behind my sudden bout of depression and self- hate; do I eat too little vegetables and fruits? Should I exercise more? Is it my PMS?
On Friday, I actually felt better. When I logged in to my online bank account, I noticed that my granny had sent me a tenner “to cheer me up”. She didn’t know about my sudden bout of depression, but I was still glad. I also got the weekly allowance from my financial worker.
I tried to renew my McAfee virus protection, but they didn’t accept my payment.
I went out for errands. I went to the dressmaker to pick up my mended clothes, and also bring my purple and green Dirndl dress to be widened around the bodice.
I went to the supermarket and bought birthday cards, three big cartons of milk, a bag of fresh kale, and two lip balms.
I went back home and put my shopping to their rightful places. I made some coffee.
Suddenly I noticed that I was supposed to leave, I was going to meet Mirette in University Town so we could go to movies to see the 2D version of Venom.
I traveled to downtown and met Mirette at the movie theater. We bought tickets and saw the movie; my favorite part was that Venom smiled all the time, and my favorite moment was where the symbiote called Eddie a “p*ssy!”.
After the movie, we traveled to Mirette’s home town. We went to the local supermarket where I bought a tomato- mozzarella sandwich, fruit salad, and a can of chocolate milk. Mirette bought some groceries as well.
We went to Mirette’s home, where she changed her clothes and made some sweet potato fries for supper. We had a hearty supper, and then Mirette packed her sleepover stuff.
We traveled to my home town. Once back at my home, I put all my stuff to their rightful places, plugged my smartphone to the recharger, put the droopy curtains neatly, washed two loads of laundry and took them downstairs to the drying room.
Fortunately, the bus arrived right away. I could have walked, but I didn’t have enough spoons for walking.
I met my mother on the street right after I got off the bus. If I would have gotten late, she would have already gone for her own errands.
She gave me a crisp 20 euro bill, and I left after that.
I took a bus back to my home town and went to spend that money. I bought three cartons of milk, a box of assorted mint chocolates, and something else I already forgot.
I went back home, put everything to their rightful places, ate a whole boxful of chocolates and made some coffee.
I got a sudden urge of energy; I took a shower and made myself as pretty as I could. I also put on one of my prettiest outfits.
I felt like I was already cured of the flu, so I decided to go to Twinkle café.
At first, I went to the supermarket and bought a bottle of iced coffee, like I had promised not to do. All the trains were late, so I took a bus downtown and then a tram.
Once at the café, I felt better even if I threw up once.
After I left, I traveled back to the city center. I visited a few shops and felt devastated about how I am never going to afford anything.
I bought a smoothie and traveled back home a longer way, through an urbane adventure.
On Wednesday, my friend Suavecita came to visit me, she and Eleclya were going to a bread line. I stayed home, feeling sad and angry for no reason at all.
I had to pop to the supermarket to buy milk for our coffees.
In the evening, I went to the knitting group. I was late, and once I made it to the culture center, a man harassed me.
Once at the knitting group, the librarian who was reading the book chided me for helping myself to the coffee and cookies. She told me I was supposed to get them only after she was done reading the book.
Once back home, I felt devastatingly depressed and self- hatey.
Today wasn’t any better; I got up late, felt depressed out of my mind, ran out of milk and couldn’t afford to buy more.
I’m trying to figure out the reason behind my sudden bout of depression and self- hate; do I eat too little vegetables and fruits? Should I exercise more? Is it my PMS?
On Friday, I actually felt better. When I logged in to my online bank account, I noticed that my granny had sent me a tenner “to cheer me up”. She didn’t know about my sudden bout of depression, but I was still glad. I also got the weekly allowance from my financial worker.
I tried to renew my McAfee virus protection, but they didn’t accept my payment.
I went out for errands. I went to the dressmaker to pick up my mended clothes, and also bring my purple and green Dirndl dress to be widened around the bodice.
I went to the supermarket and bought birthday cards, three big cartons of milk, a bag of fresh kale, and two lip balms.
I went back home and put my shopping to their rightful places. I made some coffee.
Suddenly I noticed that I was supposed to leave, I was going to meet Mirette in University Town so we could go to movies to see the 2D version of Venom.
I traveled to downtown and met Mirette at the movie theater. We bought tickets and saw the movie; my favorite part was that Venom smiled all the time, and my favorite moment was where the symbiote called Eddie a “p*ssy!”.
After the movie, we traveled to Mirette’s home town. We went to the local supermarket where I bought a tomato- mozzarella sandwich, fruit salad, and a can of chocolate milk. Mirette bought some groceries as well.
We went to Mirette’s home, where she changed her clothes and made some sweet potato fries for supper. We had a hearty supper, and then Mirette packed her sleepover stuff.
We traveled to my home town. Once back at my home, I put all my stuff to their rightful places, plugged my smartphone to the recharger, put the droopy curtains neatly, washed two loads of laundry and took them downstairs to the drying room.