The trouble of writing original fic
A few nights ago, I got a pretty nifty dream. It included, among other things, a flying police station and two people lost in space without a space ship. I could go into further detail, but after waking up I decided that it would make a pretty fun original story, so now I'm trying not to describe things apart until I have them in the story.
So I started writing. It means I have to juggle the story with the ninth Birthdayverse story, but I don't mind.
What I do mind is what I turn into when I write original fic. Before I had one page written, I was already checking out the shape and size in which publishers want their scripts.
And I don't want to be like that. I'm not an author, and I can't write if I tell myself I have to make it a kick-ass story. It's not joyful to do it that way, to judge my success not only from feedback, which is bad enough, but from whether or not it meets standards I know from the beginning it won't.
Maybe if I knew a proper forum for this kind of stuff I wouldn't end up in this situation. But it could also be that I was ruined by early indoctrination as I spent my teenage years sharing my writing with a guy who started sending in scripts while he was still in high school. (They weren't any good, but that's beside the point...)
I just want to be able to write what I want, when I want...
So I started writing. It means I have to juggle the story with the ninth Birthdayverse story, but I don't mind.
What I do mind is what I turn into when I write original fic. Before I had one page written, I was already checking out the shape and size in which publishers want their scripts.
And I don't want to be like that. I'm not an author, and I can't write if I tell myself I have to make it a kick-ass story. It's not joyful to do it that way, to judge my success not only from feedback, which is bad enough, but from whether or not it meets standards I know from the beginning it won't.
Maybe if I knew a proper forum for this kind of stuff I wouldn't end up in this situation. But it could also be that I was ruined by early indoctrination as I spent my teenage years sharing my writing with a guy who started sending in scripts while he was still in high school. (They weren't any good, but that's beside the point...)
I just want to be able to write what I want, when I want...