I am retarded.

[kats_meow_mix]

That's right. It's 1:25 am, and where am I? Downstairs on the couch, playing online, reading, watching TV, anything to get my stupid mind off of throwing up.

We went out to eat tonight. I don't know if my

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[ms_malibooty]

I am hemophobic. Granted, it's very very minor (compared to some other people with their phobias) but I still consider it a phobia because my fears are completely illogical and unwarranted, yet I still feel them.

Througout childhood I would burst into tears at the sight of blood and faint at discussions about blood (specifically blood-born diseases or needles, etc). And I mean literally "faint" (smelling salts and all). I can't even elaborate too much on it here because it will freak me out, lol.

As I got older I somehow got over it a lot, but it's still weird. I could watch a movie where people's limbs are gushing blood and only be slightly "ew", I guess because I know it's fake. But a minor cut on my finger caused a melt down. I'm not at the point where a papercut freaks me out, but I still get sick during certain discussions (hemophilia especially freaks me out, but I can't get into right now).

While pregnant, I somehow got over it enough to let them take blood when necessary (believe me it wasn't easy but I did it). And while I still am seriously squeamish, I now barely flinch when Malipoo hurts herself. (Although so far it's always been minor stuff luckily).

Anyway, the reason I am blabbering away here about blood, is that I understand that "I know there's not really anything scary about this, but yet I'm still totally scared about this" feeling. Even though I don't have real issues with vomiting (although I do hate it and before Malipoo hadn't thrown up for 13 years), I don't think you're at ALL crazy for feeling that way.

Eh, I need to go lay down now.

Oh and PS:

[ms_malibooty]

I haven't had anyone take blood or anything since after having the baby. I'm definitely a lot better because of her, but I've never been as "okay" as when I was pregnant. I have no idea why. I guess because it was about HER and not me?