A New Beginning....
The end of 2007 is nearing. Now I'm not one for New Years resolutions (I find them pointless), but I do know that some serious changes need to be made in my life. I believe I am accurate when I say that the year 2007 was the year that I hit "Rock Bottom". Coming inches away from losing close to everything that I have worked so hard for. My car, my great apartment, my family, my dreams, my goals, and my credit. The last being lost, and needs to be regained with a sense of high urgency. Being laid off is never an easy situation for anyone, but unfortunately, in that business-it happens! However, there were so many actions that SHOULD have been taken to lighten the situation. Being more focused and more determined to get a better job, instead of waiting around for it to fall into my lap. Instead I completely raped the system and looked at it as a time to party. Keeping a mind state of "I can stay out all night! It's not like I have to work in the morning!" I caused my own financial woe's. I did this to myself. Now the time has come to fix what I've done. regain faith and trust in myself.
So....instead of labeling things as "resolutions", mentioned below are my "GOALS" for the year 2008.
** Improve My Well Being--Ways of accomplishment include:
A Healthier Diet
Cutting down on activities I should not be participating in
cut down on my drinking
Start Yoga classes to acquire my flexibility I once possessed
Take up a form of solo meditation
Learn to clear my head of unnecessary stress
**Stabilize my Financial Future--Ways of accomplishment include:
Enroll myself into credit counseling
Contact debt collectors and explain my entire situation to them, be honest and quit avoiding phone calls
Once counseling is established, refinance my car
Obtain a second form of income. (ie serving, bartending, night job)
Pay down any possible debts
Keep on top of the necessary month to month bills
Have my bank account out of the negative by the beginning of March
**Improve my Social & Dating Life--Ways of accomplishment include:
Lighten up when it comes to men, keep up a strong guard, but don't be so quick to push them away. Take it for what it may be
Stay focused on who my true friends are, stop letting just anyone in, trust is something that is earned, not given
Treat those around me with the same honesty and respect that I would expect in return
Give credit where credit is due
Be gracious and show gratitude when it is needed
Keep in mind prior incidents that have happened in the past due to mistrust.
I think that qualifies as a pretty good list of goals and improvements. My only big problem is that I address the things in life that require work and change, but I don't push myself hard enough. This year will be different. It HAS to be different. This is my life, I have control, and I will make things happen. I have found the determination that I lacked in past years. I'm not getting any younger. I need to work towards a rewarding future. I believe I deserve that.
As I move forward with these changes, I keep a positive outlook on my future. And I pray I get support from all of my loved ones. Even if these changes meanI must leave some aspects of my life behind. It definitely won't be easy. But eventually things must change. One day I'm going to have to buck up and realize that I really AM an adult, no matter how hard I've tried to fight it! I;m ready to start fulfilling the life dreams I've had for so many years. Dreams of success, dreams of a family, dreams of complete happiness.
Here's to 2008! Treat me good.....or ELSE! Something's gotta give at some point, right?
Mad Love, Prosperity and Respect to you all! Good luck in the upcoming year!
Love Love