Lately...
I have been kind of depressed. Tom and I are arguing more than ever before. I am trying to work everyday, and he gets mad at me when I do. I like working, and I try to do everything I can to save our situation. But, it seems impossible lately. Our bills are piling up, and we have cut out the things we could, and lower the things we could.
I just feel trapped. I honestly just want to move out now with my parents. It would be so much easier, traveling, lower bills without all the heat, water, a/c. Tom wants to wait until the last possible minute to live there I know it.
The last few nights I have woken up with a sore jaw, and it just hit me this morning that I think I'm grinding my teeth because of the stress. I haven't been to the dentist in January..which is SOOO rare for me. I LOVED my dentist, but b/c of Tom's new insurance, we had to switch.
I just feel like a failure. I know that I invested all the money and time into teaching. Here I am a 29 year old student following another dream that is costing my family. What I am doing?? Should I stop this and go back? I can't believe I am contemplating that. Tom would kill me!!
It just sucks lately....now we are putting the house up for sale. We have to do it by owner, b/c we owe more on the house than we started out owing! GREAT! Tom wants to wait to put it up (AGAIN!) to fix the hole in the door he punched, and the grout in the bathtub. HELP!!
Lord, save me from a life that I have created, and now I hate!
I just feel trapped. I honestly just want to move out now with my parents. It would be so much easier, traveling, lower bills without all the heat, water, a/c. Tom wants to wait until the last possible minute to live there I know it.
The last few nights I have woken up with a sore jaw, and it just hit me this morning that I think I'm grinding my teeth because of the stress. I haven't been to the dentist in January..which is SOOO rare for me. I LOVED my dentist, but b/c of Tom's new insurance, we had to switch.
I just feel like a failure. I know that I invested all the money and time into teaching. Here I am a 29 year old student following another dream that is costing my family. What I am doing?? Should I stop this and go back? I can't believe I am contemplating that. Tom would kill me!!
It just sucks lately....now we are putting the house up for sale. We have to do it by owner, b/c we owe more on the house than we started out owing! GREAT! Tom wants to wait to put it up (AGAIN!) to fix the hole in the door he punched, and the grout in the bathtub. HELP!!
Lord, save me from a life that I have created, and now I hate!