a 47th happy to pappy
budddy is standing behind me writing a list of rules and demanding i guess what they are. They consist of "no smoking" "no fucking w my guitar" "no touching my christmas lights" "play the bango" and "rip up your paper." Hes cracking himself up. Why am i always chumped? How am i chumped you ask? Welll i'll tell you! Buddy is setting the scence "imagine if i gave ya some ripped papah for chrissstmas aaaha" That is how. IM chumped into this shit. Im supposed to be at the bar---- not bbsitting. IM supposed to substitute until bbsitter krissy gets here but magically shes running late. M f-er. Other than severly dry hands i can't complain about life. Pappy got job back. Pappy is gonna be in a movie. buddy is now singing "talk about it. talk about it. talk about it. MOOOOOVIN ON'" sweet! pissy is home. why did i write in this thing tonight? Bc i went to barnes and noble to buy a "dallas journal" to gush in daily about him. I then felt sick and had to run home. He is like nothing i ever met before. WAIT. he is like alot i've met before i've just never been open minded to people such as him. Im not saying anymore bc i dont wanna jinx this "too good to be true feeling." i miss matt chew and think of him everyday. I shall call him in a year and see how his life is. Our last meeting was a sad one and i wish it didnt end in tears but i also know im way happier these days than ive ever been. With time he will be too. 7 days until i get to cuddle w dal, i miss him but never tell him. He intrigues me and pushes me to overall do well in life. Little shit as in wearing my seatbelt or not driving drunk. Ah fuck it, id usually say. He's an amazing cook, opened my ears to a whole entire genre of music i never thought id repsect or actually enjoy, and an entirely new form of humor. Never ever have i thought a relationship could be so mutual, full or hilarity, and pure connection even if on different views. Im never one to change bc of someone else, but he inspires me to be better. Im not putting my eggs in one basket this time but im certainly enjoying the time we have now. With that i will go sit in my hole in the wall bar and drink my jack and cokes and suck at pool! Merry christmas!