late fall term rant
to the next eighteen days of my life:
i hate you.
multiple final projects and an exam and finals it's too much in too short of a time period i want a break i want it to be christmas i want it to be iap i want it to be warm and lazy.
i had a good thanksgiving; instead of doing homework i ate. but then at the end of the break i started freaking out and obsessing about grad school. the programs i want to be in are way too competitive: between 1 in 25 and 1 in 50 people are offered admission. i won't have enough appropriate coursework. i won't have enough productive research or enough commitment to a single research project. i won't have strong recommendations. i won't have high enough test scores or a good enough gpa. its just now hitting me how competitive graduate programs can be. it's not the end of the world (might even be better) if i take a year or two off and just get a job as a research coordinator somewhere, but the idea of having to find a job and find a place to live and all that sounds scarier than just following the standard academic path.
i have too much work over the next two weeks!
i need something positive. hmm...
i kept telling people "Insert cookie." and pointing at my mouth tonight, and when i tried it on Bethany and Jon i got four oreos! that was great!
i hate you.
multiple final projects and an exam and finals it's too much in too short of a time period i want a break i want it to be christmas i want it to be iap i want it to be warm and lazy.
i had a good thanksgiving; instead of doing homework i ate. but then at the end of the break i started freaking out and obsessing about grad school. the programs i want to be in are way too competitive: between 1 in 25 and 1 in 50 people are offered admission. i won't have enough appropriate coursework. i won't have enough productive research or enough commitment to a single research project. i won't have strong recommendations. i won't have high enough test scores or a good enough gpa. its just now hitting me how competitive graduate programs can be. it's not the end of the world (might even be better) if i take a year or two off and just get a job as a research coordinator somewhere, but the idea of having to find a job and find a place to live and all that sounds scarier than just following the standard academic path.
i have too much work over the next two weeks!
i need something positive. hmm...
i kept telling people "Insert cookie." and pointing at my mouth tonight, and when i tried it on Bethany and Jon i got four oreos! that was great!