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why do i always do this. just when things are going great, i fuck it up. i have an amazing boyfriend. one that treats me better than i could ever imagine, and i fuck it up. things were fine, but my paranoia got the best of me. with school starting tomorrow, and him starting in a week, i'm so scared that things are going to change. like he's going to get sick of me and i'll lose him. but i should know by now that he loves me and wouldn't do that. i made him really aggrivated today, and i know i shouldn't have done that. he makes me so happy, and i look forward to the fact that i still have him. why can't i just stop thinking so negatively all the time? from now on, no more. i'm going to look at the brighter side of things. if i keep thinking the way i do, i'm going to mess up everything for sure. jake, i love you soo much, and i'm sorry for the paranoia. i promise it wont happen again.