[cohesion]

[katieblueeyes]

dreaming vividly, i give in to sleep-
with him (if im lucky)
beside me, dreaming of nothing at all,
while colors undress and make love in my head,
the visions of yesterday moaning
and dancing in hyper-tones
as we rest,
neither of us snoring,
my body hungry against his,
holding tight, never afraid.

it's maddening, the two lives i meander through-
each whole and thick with the blood and bone
to stand on its own,
and i, with one foot in each.
my mind cubicled between skyscrapers
and trafficked beneath the city
like Hades' confused Dead
roaming the Underworld-

while my heart stumbles beneath the heaving mountains
on a night-walk with my sweetheart,
our bodies adrift and heavy
from the afternoon's heat,
our heads dizzy with beer
as our tongues bumble over words
and sneak into one another's mouth
and back again to our half-emptied bottles.

sometimes when i sleep, i dream of tomorrows
ripe and plump with the fullness of one life-
where heart and head at last
are joined again,
where there are no bus rides, no goodbyes,
where, finally, i set my suitcase down
and let it gather dust
and mold
and age
as it rests, untouched and empty,
in the corner of some closet,
while i, too, rest
in my lover's bed,
dreaming vividly of tomorrow's spent with him,
of nights we'll wander through on drunken walks,
our bellies full of sushi
and warmed through with wine.