the start of something new?
had a rather interesting day.
Doug has come back into my life.
I finally responded to that 'don't?' e-mail from a week ago. basically said that I'm doing ok. and that I hope he is well. woke up this morning to two IMs from him, apologizing for how things ended with us. Open up my e-mail and had two emails from him, distressing heart breaking e-mails about how hard it was to be celebrating his first holiday season without his beloved grandfather. I e-mailed him back, told him that I'm here for him no matter what, if he needs me let me know. We had an IM conversation earlier. He was drunk last night. Got another e-mail from him this afternoon. the central chick never was his girlfriend, although him using his oh so articulate writing style made it sound like he slept with her. But he said he missed me. missed talking to me, knew what I meant when I said previously like 2 months ago that I missed my best friend and that he'll call me when his phone is fixed (broke it last night in his emotional drunkenness).
the thing is, although I hurt to know he hurts, and it broke my heart to read what he poured out to me, I didn't immediatly want to go to Kzoo to check up on him. I offered my assistance, and said if you need me, let me know. If he would have asked me to go to Kzoo, I probably would have gone, but he didn't and it's like ok. Plus the fact that he may have slept with that chick. It really didn't bother me; it was more, 'why the hell did you feel the need to write this?' type of thing. So maybe these are signs that I'm over him in the 'I still wanna be with you' sense completely. I mean, I still care a lot, and a part of me will always love him in some way. We had a great 6 months together and I'm thankful for that. But as for us being an us, it's never going to happen. we're too different, and he caused me too much pain for that to ever happen again. Maybe we're on the start to being able to be friends, and I'm cool with that.
study study at the library today. met a hot guy who was studying with Trang, Kristi, and I for awhile. Wants to do International law and live in DC.... pretty much perfect for me. course, I looked like a bum and I'll probably never see him again, but eh, it was something pretty to look at for awhile. :-)
back to torts. desperate housewives is not on tonight. :-( at least grey's anatomy is.
first law school final tomorrow morning! wish me luck!
Doug has come back into my life.
I finally responded to that 'don't?' e-mail from a week ago. basically said that I'm doing ok. and that I hope he is well. woke up this morning to two IMs from him, apologizing for how things ended with us. Open up my e-mail and had two emails from him, distressing heart breaking e-mails about how hard it was to be celebrating his first holiday season without his beloved grandfather. I e-mailed him back, told him that I'm here for him no matter what, if he needs me let me know. We had an IM conversation earlier. He was drunk last night. Got another e-mail from him this afternoon. the central chick never was his girlfriend, although him using his oh so articulate writing style made it sound like he slept with her. But he said he missed me. missed talking to me, knew what I meant when I said previously like 2 months ago that I missed my best friend and that he'll call me when his phone is fixed (broke it last night in his emotional drunkenness).
the thing is, although I hurt to know he hurts, and it broke my heart to read what he poured out to me, I didn't immediatly want to go to Kzoo to check up on him. I offered my assistance, and said if you need me, let me know. If he would have asked me to go to Kzoo, I probably would have gone, but he didn't and it's like ok. Plus the fact that he may have slept with that chick. It really didn't bother me; it was more, 'why the hell did you feel the need to write this?' type of thing. So maybe these are signs that I'm over him in the 'I still wanna be with you' sense completely. I mean, I still care a lot, and a part of me will always love him in some way. We had a great 6 months together and I'm thankful for that. But as for us being an us, it's never going to happen. we're too different, and he caused me too much pain for that to ever happen again. Maybe we're on the start to being able to be friends, and I'm cool with that.
study study at the library today. met a hot guy who was studying with Trang, Kristi, and I for awhile. Wants to do International law and live in DC.... pretty much perfect for me. course, I looked like a bum and I'll probably never see him again, but eh, it was something pretty to look at for awhile. :-)
back to torts. desperate housewives is not on tonight. :-( at least grey's anatomy is.
first law school final tomorrow morning! wish me luck!