Revelations:
Revelation #1: I prefer one best friend to a group of friends because in groups, I tend to be the one left out or dropped from the group.
Revelation #2: I don't talk a lot because at home I'm ignored, interrupted to be forgotten, or simply not listened to so I don't think people will actually listen to me/care. Or I start to think that if I'm ignored then nothing I say is interesting so there's no point in even opening my mouth.
Revelation #3: I sleep with guys I'm interested in instead of telling them I like them because I fear rejection/know they won't like me back. Sex is the only way I know how to get close to a guy without being rejected, even though it's all I'll ever get with them.
Revelation #4: I never purposely try to make friends, get close to people, or let anyone too deep into my life because I've lost everyone I've allowed to do so.
Revelation #5: I "hate" men and purposely hurt the ones that are actually nice to me/show more interest in me than sex because I associate them with him. I was always scared to take it out on the one who actually hurt me so I take it out on any guy cause to me they're all the same.
More on this later....
Revelation #2: I don't talk a lot because at home I'm ignored, interrupted to be forgotten, or simply not listened to so I don't think people will actually listen to me/care. Or I start to think that if I'm ignored then nothing I say is interesting so there's no point in even opening my mouth.
Revelation #3: I sleep with guys I'm interested in instead of telling them I like them because I fear rejection/know they won't like me back. Sex is the only way I know how to get close to a guy without being rejected, even though it's all I'll ever get with them.
Revelation #4: I never purposely try to make friends, get close to people, or let anyone too deep into my life because I've lost everyone I've allowed to do so.
Revelation #5: I "hate" men and purposely hurt the ones that are actually nice to me/show more interest in me than sex because I associate them with him. I was always scared to take it out on the one who actually hurt me so I take it out on any guy cause to me they're all the same.
More on this later....