Why?
It's stupid, I just can't stop myself caring!!
I don't tend to be friends with people who don't like me
Generally though it's because I don't like them back
And therefore I'm 'nice' to them because of my strange fucked up way of being
But this, this isn't that
They refuse to talk to me, and quite possibly hate me (why else refuse total contact?) but I don't feel the same
Not that I feel like we're best buds, I'm not naive, but I don't hate them, I don't even dislike them, despite them hating me!
Why, oh why??
It just is utterly stupid.
I have no idea how October is going to work.
I feel tense silences coming on
In which case I will run to the other end of the train and be lonely
Because that can be the only way to solve that problem
And thankfully I like train journeys (book + music FTW)
I just don't know how it's going to work
Might be easier if I didn't like them...
I don't tend to be friends with people who don't like me
Generally though it's because I don't like them back
And therefore I'm 'nice' to them because of my strange fucked up way of being
But this, this isn't that
They refuse to talk to me, and quite possibly hate me (why else refuse total contact?) but I don't feel the same
Not that I feel like we're best buds, I'm not naive, but I don't hate them, I don't even dislike them, despite them hating me!
Why, oh why??
It just is utterly stupid.
I have no idea how October is going to work.
I feel tense silences coming on
In which case I will run to the other end of the train and be lonely
Because that can be the only way to solve that problem
And thankfully I like train journeys (book + music FTW)
I just don't know how it's going to work
Might be easier if I didn't like them...