God, I've missed myself.
You know what I love to do?... Get really fucking stoned and listen to the remake of "The Day I Tried to Live" by Sound Garden.. It's covered by Between the Buried and Me.. FUCKING AMAZING. Beautiful.
Anyway .. things have been looking up. Jared and I have been fighting a bit, which sort of comes when people start to deal with their financial issues. So I'm not too worried about the small tiffs. It's hard to motivate him sometimes, and he's stubborn- so yeah, that always helps as well, you know?.. ;)
I've been applying to a bunch of jobs again. Winter sucked and semi-tossed me in to a season depression phase, (I think)... It happened to the majority of the world.. I think we all saw it, but any how.. I started taking better care of my body over the winter... I was vegan, veg for a bit.. but I'm back to eating some meat cause I actually weigh like 115 pounds. (Multiple reasons why I chose to not eat meat, etc.. no judging, prz!) I'm around 5'7" I believe... but I slouch hardcore... (making me 5'5"- which I'm also working on, not slouching..) and I've come to find out that my breathing patterns, and just about everyone elses is 'off course'.. I'll say, hahaha. :) So... learning to breathe this winter is actually on the top of my list of shit to do. It should be on yours too, because I garuntee you need it! ♥
Over the winter, I got in to a small car crash: I'll fill you in. I think it was in February.. (I'm pretty sure) Jared and I were on our way to go visit my parents. I hadn't been home in a really long time, and I was excited! I wasn't going fast, but the roads were pretty crappy. In Hallowell, entering in to Augusta (the back roads..) we were on a straight stretch, and there were two cars in the opposite lane, one swerved in to my lane (probably because of the slush) so I obviously automatically slightly moved my wheel to be away from the other car.. when I did that my car was dragged by the slush on the side of the road (right lane). My car began to fish tail! The two cars were gone by now, by my car had fishtailed in to the opposite lane, I went to pull my wheel from that side... (HARDLY MOVING THE WHEEL AT ALL) and my car drove through a snow bank... Proceeded in to a series of small trees... My car looks not so good anymore! But it is now fixed... No real damage was really done to the car, so it still drives... after around $100, or so... cheap labor, cheap parts... But my car looks like Cinderella mixed with a bit of Frankenstein? I don't know. Shes got some brutal scrapes.. I literally took out a few trees. But we were fine. I didn't end up going home.. and that sucked. A lot of people thought I wasn't even serious, but fuck those people. :) My boyfriend actually fixed my car, paid for it and everything.
I've realized that because of being on anti depressants for around 10 years or so.. my body adopted a hormonal imbalance. Yay!... I started taking this supplement called "Dong Quai." I also take fish oil, cranberry pills (for the reoccurring awesome uti's that I get! from eating chicken and dairy!) I also started drinking teas on a regular basis.... I find it relaxes me almost as much as smoking weed, certain scents as well.. I've been geeking it up, (as usual) learning about a lot of random things. Jared is a smarty, and always has me reading (even when I don't want to.)
I actually stopped writing in this thing a while ago, and got a stupid blog thing... somewhere else. Yeah, fuck that thing. No one reads it, and thats no fun. Whats the point of going somewhere else to blog?... I guess sometimes I want to be too private.. Bah, humans!.. ;)
So, I've applied to a few office jobs.. and it looks like for now, considering my experience.. and how much money I can make from that in this world today... I have to work a fucking office job! Hahah. Not that I mind, cause I love computers.. and workin tha phonez, and such. I'm good at office multitasking.. and all that jazz.
I'm going home tomorrow.. to visit for my birthday (which isn't even actually until the 18th) I'm staying until Monday.. Friday - Monday. On Saturday I'm seeing a psychic... which I'm pretty excited about. I saw her once when I was 18, that was right after my brutal break up with the well known Mike Prue.. ;) So, I'm interested in what she'll be saying.. Now that I'm older, smarter, and more interested.. I think I'll get a lot more out of what she'll have to say.. and even if something happens with her, and I don't.. I think I'll still be pretty happy because being home this weekend will be great. I have a lot of people that I can see, that I'd love to see... (Erin, Meagan, Brittany, Bree) and hopefully, I'll have pot.. (I'm a little worried, cause Im running out right now- blah! I hate being home with no weed, its the worst hahaha) I'll be having a dinner with my family on Saturday night at my moms.. with my Aunt Cindrie and Uncle Jimbo. My mom is making something cool, I'm psyched.
My dad is coming home on Sunday.. thats why I've decided to stay for so long, actually.. I haven't seen him in a long time, and HIS birthday is actually tomorrow. :) He's going to be 53. I love my daddy. ♥ I made him a card, and got him a few little presents.. made him some burned dvds.. (cause I'm poor) but he'll appreciate that shit more than any other present from anyone else I'm sure.... my dad believes in simple things... I think thats where I get it from.. :)
I'm really excited to see Cody, I think he's excited to see me too. I can't wait until he can drive out here, it sucks that he doesn't have a car... and my dad and him have been fighting lately. So, I hope him and I get to talk about some shit.. I like to help him out, hes the man. Burning with Cody and chillin are probably my favorite things to do .. in the entire world. Everyone should have that feeling with their sibling, even if they don't need weed to achieve it. (Awesome if you can haha)
Anyway.. Im done writing this. Too much writing. Hahhaa. PEACE!
Anyway .. things have been looking up. Jared and I have been fighting a bit, which sort of comes when people start to deal with their financial issues. So I'm not too worried about the small tiffs. It's hard to motivate him sometimes, and he's stubborn- so yeah, that always helps as well, you know?.. ;)
I've been applying to a bunch of jobs again. Winter sucked and semi-tossed me in to a season depression phase, (I think)... It happened to the majority of the world.. I think we all saw it, but any how.. I started taking better care of my body over the winter... I was vegan, veg for a bit.. but I'm back to eating some meat cause I actually weigh like 115 pounds. (Multiple reasons why I chose to not eat meat, etc.. no judging, prz!) I'm around 5'7" I believe... but I slouch hardcore... (making me 5'5"- which I'm also working on, not slouching..) and I've come to find out that my breathing patterns, and just about everyone elses is 'off course'.. I'll say, hahaha. :) So... learning to breathe this winter is actually on the top of my list of shit to do. It should be on yours too, because I garuntee you need it! ♥
Over the winter, I got in to a small car crash: I'll fill you in. I think it was in February.. (I'm pretty sure) Jared and I were on our way to go visit my parents. I hadn't been home in a really long time, and I was excited! I wasn't going fast, but the roads were pretty crappy. In Hallowell, entering in to Augusta (the back roads..) we were on a straight stretch, and there were two cars in the opposite lane, one swerved in to my lane (probably because of the slush) so I obviously automatically slightly moved my wheel to be away from the other car.. when I did that my car was dragged by the slush on the side of the road (right lane). My car began to fish tail! The two cars were gone by now, by my car had fishtailed in to the opposite lane, I went to pull my wheel from that side... (HARDLY MOVING THE WHEEL AT ALL) and my car drove through a snow bank... Proceeded in to a series of small trees... My car looks not so good anymore! But it is now fixed... No real damage was really done to the car, so it still drives... after around $100, or so... cheap labor, cheap parts... But my car looks like Cinderella mixed with a bit of Frankenstein? I don't know. Shes got some brutal scrapes.. I literally took out a few trees. But we were fine. I didn't end up going home.. and that sucked. A lot of people thought I wasn't even serious, but fuck those people. :) My boyfriend actually fixed my car, paid for it and everything.
I've realized that because of being on anti depressants for around 10 years or so.. my body adopted a hormonal imbalance. Yay!... I started taking this supplement called "Dong Quai." I also take fish oil, cranberry pills (for the reoccurring awesome uti's that I get! from eating chicken and dairy!) I also started drinking teas on a regular basis.... I find it relaxes me almost as much as smoking weed, certain scents as well.. I've been geeking it up, (as usual) learning about a lot of random things. Jared is a smarty, and always has me reading (even when I don't want to.)
I actually stopped writing in this thing a while ago, and got a stupid blog thing... somewhere else. Yeah, fuck that thing. No one reads it, and thats no fun. Whats the point of going somewhere else to blog?... I guess sometimes I want to be too private.. Bah, humans!.. ;)
So, I've applied to a few office jobs.. and it looks like for now, considering my experience.. and how much money I can make from that in this world today... I have to work a fucking office job! Hahah. Not that I mind, cause I love computers.. and workin tha phonez, and such. I'm good at office multitasking.. and all that jazz.
I'm going home tomorrow.. to visit for my birthday (which isn't even actually until the 18th) I'm staying until Monday.. Friday - Monday. On Saturday I'm seeing a psychic... which I'm pretty excited about. I saw her once when I was 18, that was right after my brutal break up with the well known Mike Prue.. ;) So, I'm interested in what she'll be saying.. Now that I'm older, smarter, and more interested.. I think I'll get a lot more out of what she'll have to say.. and even if something happens with her, and I don't.. I think I'll still be pretty happy because being home this weekend will be great. I have a lot of people that I can see, that I'd love to see... (Erin, Meagan, Brittany, Bree) and hopefully, I'll have pot.. (I'm a little worried, cause Im running out right now- blah! I hate being home with no weed, its the worst hahaha) I'll be having a dinner with my family on Saturday night at my moms.. with my Aunt Cindrie and Uncle Jimbo. My mom is making something cool, I'm psyched.
My dad is coming home on Sunday.. thats why I've decided to stay for so long, actually.. I haven't seen him in a long time, and HIS birthday is actually tomorrow. :) He's going to be 53. I love my daddy. ♥ I made him a card, and got him a few little presents.. made him some burned dvds.. (cause I'm poor) but he'll appreciate that shit more than any other present from anyone else I'm sure.... my dad believes in simple things... I think thats where I get it from.. :)
I'm really excited to see Cody, I think he's excited to see me too. I can't wait until he can drive out here, it sucks that he doesn't have a car... and my dad and him have been fighting lately. So, I hope him and I get to talk about some shit.. I like to help him out, hes the man. Burning with Cody and chillin are probably my favorite things to do .. in the entire world. Everyone should have that feeling with their sibling, even if they don't need weed to achieve it. (Awesome if you can haha)
Anyway.. Im done writing this. Too much writing. Hahhaa. PEACE!