fack it
I think ive been in japan for a while now... is three months long enuf? i guess i have til the 12th.. its only the 9th. im not sure how much my japanese improved, mostly because i feel like an idiot using it. haha! japanese is soo hard! theres so many ways to say things, yet there are certain times when a way of saying something is appropriate. its very hard to judge when to use a certain form or to even understand that form at all! slang is complicated like slang should be. the whole skipping over syllables, particles, letters, words.. and still making sense. what part to leave out; what part is necessary; how many meanings one word/grammar point has; neverending kanji and vocab; masculine and feminine speech; honorific and humble speech; sentence endings; gobi (freakn weird word), pronunciation nado (and so on). when i can actually hold a convo.. like one of those really tiny ones! it amazes me. it amazes me when i use english and they dont understand and then i use japanese and they do. i freak out. then it makes me want to study. but then i see a couple of old people talking really fast to each other and i cant understand a damn thing.. then i become sad. its like.. sitting next to someone u kno u cant talk to because they wont understand you and uv used every grammar point and ur vocab is so tiny that ur basically finished getting to know this person. it only goes so far! haha silly me... thinkin i can actually mold relationships. forget it! right now this is all i can get. i cant wrangle the bitches that are hard to wrangle with my smooth moves (rawr!) as in my personality concerning what i say... not how i look or how into JAPANESE CULTURE AND PEOPLE i am cuz if im totally into that ill definitely appear as a foreigner. one that japanese want to get to kno cuz im totally crazy.. a funky interesting foreigner. make sense? if im normal or at least normal to a japanese person... not easy to a japanese boy... then all im able to wrangle are those rare awesome people, but dammit those people are rare! haha.. i cant believe im still fighting with myself over this huge language barrier. it really does suck a fuck tho. i bought some cute things to make up for my lack of conversation. i mainly bought lil gadgets to bring back to america or if people come here so ill have a lil stash of cute things to give out. im excited! i dont have much tho. i need more. so like... send me yen. ha right. shit.