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today was pretty fun i went shopping wit my mom downtown and walked around a bit
anyways im starting to realize that maybe likeing someone isn't much fun , yu know what quote thingy "if yu hold back feelings cuz yur afraid of getting hurt yu wind up getting hurt anyways" well sometimes i think that maybe yu dun end up getting hurt by telling that person sometimes its better off not telling them that way yu dun have to know how they actually feel about yu or that they would never look at yu in that kind of way.
im starting to think that maybe i shouldn't have told him. just have kept it to my self. it was actually the first time i told a guy that i liked them ad not have the guy i like find out from other ppl which i realize now is pretty stupid.. when yu tell someone they might look at you different,talk to yu different or avoid yu as much as possible..i hate that. but when i told him it was kinda releaveing in a way i guess lik i finally got it off my chest but what was i thinking.... did i actually think that somethings might happen between us.. maybe i dunno but it seems now that i shouldn't have told him and that nothing will ever happen.. i still like him ad all but maybe it just takes time i guess... it would be really weird if he was reading this now lol i think that maybe that would ruin everything lol but hey what r the chances of something actually happening.
im never the lucky person i guess i realize now how stupid i have been.. some ppl r really lucky they get who ever they want but i know thats not me. i look back at how i dated other guys ad how it started and its weird but they always started to like me first and then i started to develope feelings for them.. never me likeing someone and then they end up likeing me back..who knows if it will actually every happen to me in that way
anyways i just had to say that lol
tonight i can't wait im goin out with a bunch of ppl ad were all goin glow in the dark bowling haha should be awesome i love the music they play lol i can;t wait
katherine xox
anyways im starting to realize that maybe likeing someone isn't much fun , yu know what quote thingy "if yu hold back feelings cuz yur afraid of getting hurt yu wind up getting hurt anyways" well sometimes i think that maybe yu dun end up getting hurt by telling that person sometimes its better off not telling them that way yu dun have to know how they actually feel about yu or that they would never look at yu in that kind of way.
im starting to think that maybe i shouldn't have told him. just have kept it to my self. it was actually the first time i told a guy that i liked them ad not have the guy i like find out from other ppl which i realize now is pretty stupid.. when yu tell someone they might look at you different,talk to yu different or avoid yu as much as possible..i hate that. but when i told him it was kinda releaveing in a way i guess lik i finally got it off my chest but what was i thinking.... did i actually think that somethings might happen between us.. maybe i dunno but it seems now that i shouldn't have told him and that nothing will ever happen.. i still like him ad all but maybe it just takes time i guess... it would be really weird if he was reading this now lol i think that maybe that would ruin everything lol but hey what r the chances of something actually happening.
im never the lucky person i guess i realize now how stupid i have been.. some ppl r really lucky they get who ever they want but i know thats not me. i look back at how i dated other guys ad how it started and its weird but they always started to like me first and then i started to develope feelings for them.. never me likeing someone and then they end up likeing me back..who knows if it will actually every happen to me in that way
anyways i just had to say that lol
tonight i can't wait im goin out with a bunch of ppl ad were all goin glow in the dark bowling haha should be awesome i love the music they play lol i can;t wait
katherine xox