tired
I'm tired, officially tired. Jose refuses to answer my questions and now won't see me. What's going on? Why won't he see me? Well fuck him. I'm making my rounds to those people that I once cared about. I can't go on living this way. My heart always feels heavy and I always want to die. My illness is too much to deal with. I'm sorry brother and sister and friends, but you don't have to live with this depression day in and day out. I cry and cry and pray to God to give me an illness, but he never does. I have to do this on my own.
Today I see jerry and talk to him. It's been since 2007 since we've talked and I just want to clear my conscience and I will be okay. I don't care that I have to apologize when he owes me one. I need to be free of all pains. Next I talk to Bob and make things right there. I don't want people thinking I killed myself because of them.
Peace is all I want and in death I will have peace.
Today I see jerry and talk to him. It's been since 2007 since we've talked and I just want to clear my conscience and I will be okay. I don't care that I have to apologize when he owes me one. I need to be free of all pains. Next I talk to Bob and make things right there. I don't want people thinking I killed myself because of them.
Peace is all I want and in death I will have peace.