I have many questions that I would like to have answered. However, I have only three that I need answered most urgently, and so I suppose I should begin with those
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I doubt it would be possible for me to be sufficiently hard on myself, I'm afraid. I know that I am arrogant, selfish, prone to destroying things when I am displeased -- up to and including planets -- and that my attempts at becoming a more pleasant and socialized individual are borne largely of the entirely self-centered desire to have the people I trust feel more willing to remain in my presence. I calculate social interactions, rather than simply understanding them. I shouldn't allow you to suffer under the misapprehension that I am a good person. It's just that I am sincerely attempting to learn the patterns of society for my own, often less than noble, purposes.
With that warning given -- if you are still willing to help with my education, I would be most grateful. I understand that there is an upcoming event where it is important for individuals to give the proper gift to their heart's best beloved, and that the improper gift can cause distress? I'd be eager to learn whatever it is you're willing to teach.
[ooc: Sephiroth asking a nun about Valentine's Day. XD Well, he's already in trouble, he's already asked Yuuko and Selphie for help too!]
Well, Mr. Sephiroth, I mean no disrespect, but perhaps you should leave the past in the past. Is that not what this city is all about? A second chance is not much of a chance if you refuse to let go of the past.
And, as far as your theory on selfish motives, well, we are all guilty of that. Unavoidably so. Of course we do things to benefit us...there is some self-interest in everything that anyone does.
I am afraid that I do not know much about Valentine's Day. It is a holiday in which gifts are given to show our emotional attachment to others. That is about all I know. Being raised as a nun, I do not really have much experience with relationships, to be honest.
I am still more than willing to teach you whatever I can, though...and happy to have a new friend.
I... thought that I had been able to leave the past behind, until...
Certain recent events have reminded me just how tenuous my control over my own mind really is, when I am subjected to certain alien influences. Lady Caterina and Father Abel are among those who suffered for my mind's flaws, not to mention a good portion of the city. I believe I need to find a more careful balance between 'leaving the past behind' and 'remaining guarded against particular shadows, so that I might not cause such harm if the past were to come for me once more.'
--There's that word. 'Relationships.' That should logically refer to any bond between two individuals -- educational, military, political, parental, professional, friendly, marital, extramarital... but for some reason, civilians seem to use it to refer specifically to romantic interactions.
I presume that, as a nun, you have mentor relationships with your superiors and professional and friendly relationships with your fellow nuns? But from the context of that sentence, it seems that you were thinking of unfamiliarity with romantic relationships... how semantically intriguing, for that to be your 'default' definition as well.
I am about to be terribly heretical at you, though Father Abel and Lady Caterina can assure you that I do this with depressing regularity. It seems to me that it is human nature to think more deeply on what one is denied than what one is permitted. In that case, would it not free the mind of the distractions of denial if your priesthood were allowed to experience the full range of human relationships?
With that warning given -- if you are still willing to help with my education, I would be most grateful. I understand that there is an upcoming event where it is important for individuals to give the proper gift to their heart's best beloved, and that the improper gift can cause distress? I'd be eager to learn whatever it is you're willing to teach.
[ooc: Sephiroth asking a nun about Valentine's Day. XD Well, he's already in trouble, he's already asked Yuuko and Selphie for help too!]
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And, as far as your theory on selfish motives, well, we are all guilty of that. Unavoidably so. Of course we do things to benefit us...there is some self-interest in everything that anyone does.
I am afraid that I do not know much about Valentine's Day. It is a holiday in which gifts are given to show our emotional attachment to others. That is about all I know. Being raised as a nun, I do not really have much experience with relationships, to be honest.
I am still more than willing to teach you whatever I can, though...and happy to have a new friend.
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Certain recent events have reminded me just how tenuous my control over my own mind really is, when I am subjected to certain alien influences. Lady Caterina and Father Abel are among those who suffered for my mind's flaws, not to mention a good portion of the city. I believe I need to find a more careful balance between 'leaving the past behind' and 'remaining guarded against particular shadows, so that I might not cause such harm if the past were to come for me once more.'
--There's that word. 'Relationships.' That should logically refer to any bond between two individuals -- educational, military, political, parental, professional, friendly, marital, extramarital... but for some reason, civilians seem to use it to refer specifically to romantic interactions.
I presume that, as a nun, you have mentor relationships with your superiors and professional and friendly relationships with your fellow nuns? But from the context of that sentence, it seems that you were thinking of unfamiliarity with romantic relationships... how semantically intriguing, for that to be your 'default' definition as well.
I am about to be terribly heretical at you, though Father Abel and Lady Caterina can assure you that I do this with depressing regularity. It seems to me that it is human nature to think more deeply on what one is denied than what one is permitted. In that case, would it not free the mind of the distractions of denial if your priesthood were allowed to experience the full range of human relationships?
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