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So, I think I've come to a realization. I'm just spent. I honestly don't give a crap anymore about school or work. The list of things that I should do is huge right now, and the list of things I've done well until now is small. I dropped 3110. I was failing it. This means I'll have to take it next winter, which means I need to delay graduating. I'd feel worse if Frank hadn't dropped 2750 and was in the same boat I am. I didn't drop AI, though now, a day after the drop date, I suspect I'm failing that too. I did fine on assignment one, I got like, 45% on assignment 2, and I didn't hand in the programming portion of it either. That was 7.5% combined, 3.5% on the coding. I think I failed the midterm too, worth 30%. I thought I did alright, but it seems I nickel and dimed myself to death on it. Partly with mistakes I made on A2. Now the prof is emailing me saying he wants to talk to me about my progress in the course. I'm tempted to see if Frank got the email too. Midterm week was just bad for me overall. I failed the graphics midterm, I thought I did well on that too. I mean, I didn't think I aced it, but at least over 50% I was certain of. I fucked up a4 for graphics. This is gonna bite me in the ass cause a5 is based on it, and it's due on Tuesday. Didn't really start yet either. As for my two philosphy courses... I haven't been to ethics since the last test, there's another on wednesday. I think I did well on the last test. Honestly, I swear I did well... But given my track record on midterms so far, I wouldn't be surprised if I failed that too. I'll find out either monday or wednesday, I guess. I'll have to ask for it back, but I do intend on showing up for the review since it's partly why I think I did so well on the last test.
My class attendence is pretty much non-existant right now. I've skipped almost every class that wasn't a test. The exception being Existentialism. I like that class. Perhaps because it vaguely expresses how I feel at the moment. Also, there's no way to get the notes other than to go to class. I think I did alright on the tests in it, though the last one I think was a little sketchy... I think the attendence is largely why my AI prof called me in. I hate his class cause I know I'll fall asleep at the pace he goes, and he asks questions to random kids who's name he pulls off the class list. Which I'll probably explain to him when he inevitably asks.
And coop... God I want to murder them all. Seriously. I don't want to talk to them, I just want to kill them for how badly they have mishandled every god damned part of it. I am seriously tempted to drop coop all together just so I don't have to deal with their stupid crap anymore.
Semester 1 of coop: Can't get a job. Email Bruce, he says it's fine, he'll handle it.
Semester 2 of coop: Get a job in the last 10 days. Realize I can't register for coop. Why? Because they never dropped the course for me. I'd emailed Bruce saying "I need to drop this", he responded saying "I'll handle it". But for some reason, they just never put in a mark instead, cause there wasn't a bloody coop semester.
Semester 3 of coop: Have issues getting a bus pass. First they say I'm not registered. Then they say I need to go there and get it. Then it gets lost in the mail. Then I ask Frank to get it, and they say they'll mail it to Union. Then Union says they don't have it. Then somehow, Frank manages to get it from Union for me when I was meeting him. I love that boy.
Semester 3, back to campus: My boss never returns the evaluation form to me before I leave work. Then never replies to my email to come pick it up. Then, when I tell Bruce this, he looks at his records and goes "Wait, we never had you registered as doing a coop semester last semester." What the bloody fuck? He claims he'll work it out. Then they never tell me about the coop presentation date. Then, when I don't show, Shaz tells me they never even called my name to present. I don't really want to do this poster thing anyways. Problem is, I didn't do shit all semester. I don't want to talk about not doing jack all. Now I need to either tell my boss I want to come back (which I don't) or find a new job (which I haven't started looking for). I don't want to talk to Bruce about why I haven't started looking, cause he thinks it's more important than the shitloads of other crap I haven't done. I don't want to go back to do shit all again. I probably will. I need to email him soon though. I don't want to. I honestly want to drop coop. I just do not care about the fucked up department that is making me near homicidal.
And really, I don't want a job that this coop department will give me. I want to work over the summer, yes, but I want something with flexible hours, and preferably something that interests me. Or just something worth doing. Honestly, I would rather get a job at Future Shop than at RBC again. Or Best Buy. Or Games Workshop. I don't care if I make minimum wage, or just over it, I can't handle a 9-5 job right now. What I really want is to take a semester off of school. Drop coop and just get a job that'll pay the bills. Preferably somewhere in Guelph. Preferably without my parents freaking out. I'd take a semester off just straight up, but that would delay graduating again, which I don't want.
I think I need to talk to my parents, really. I'm tired of school. I'm tired of all this deadline crap. I just need a break. Preferably a longer one than a week or two to move out of school and into a 9-5 job. I knew there was a reason I didn't want to go coop in the first place. I appreciate summer vacation.
My class attendence is pretty much non-existant right now. I've skipped almost every class that wasn't a test. The exception being Existentialism. I like that class. Perhaps because it vaguely expresses how I feel at the moment. Also, there's no way to get the notes other than to go to class. I think I did alright on the tests in it, though the last one I think was a little sketchy... I think the attendence is largely why my AI prof called me in. I hate his class cause I know I'll fall asleep at the pace he goes, and he asks questions to random kids who's name he pulls off the class list. Which I'll probably explain to him when he inevitably asks.
And coop... God I want to murder them all. Seriously. I don't want to talk to them, I just want to kill them for how badly they have mishandled every god damned part of it. I am seriously tempted to drop coop all together just so I don't have to deal with their stupid crap anymore.
Semester 1 of coop: Can't get a job. Email Bruce, he says it's fine, he'll handle it.
Semester 2 of coop: Get a job in the last 10 days. Realize I can't register for coop. Why? Because they never dropped the course for me. I'd emailed Bruce saying "I need to drop this", he responded saying "I'll handle it". But for some reason, they just never put in a mark instead, cause there wasn't a bloody coop semester.
Semester 3 of coop: Have issues getting a bus pass. First they say I'm not registered. Then they say I need to go there and get it. Then it gets lost in the mail. Then I ask Frank to get it, and they say they'll mail it to Union. Then Union says they don't have it. Then somehow, Frank manages to get it from Union for me when I was meeting him. I love that boy.
Semester 3, back to campus: My boss never returns the evaluation form to me before I leave work. Then never replies to my email to come pick it up. Then, when I tell Bruce this, he looks at his records and goes "Wait, we never had you registered as doing a coop semester last semester." What the bloody fuck? He claims he'll work it out. Then they never tell me about the coop presentation date. Then, when I don't show, Shaz tells me they never even called my name to present. I don't really want to do this poster thing anyways. Problem is, I didn't do shit all semester. I don't want to talk about not doing jack all. Now I need to either tell my boss I want to come back (which I don't) or find a new job (which I haven't started looking for). I don't want to talk to Bruce about why I haven't started looking, cause he thinks it's more important than the shitloads of other crap I haven't done. I don't want to go back to do shit all again. I probably will. I need to email him soon though. I don't want to. I honestly want to drop coop. I just do not care about the fucked up department that is making me near homicidal.
And really, I don't want a job that this coop department will give me. I want to work over the summer, yes, but I want something with flexible hours, and preferably something that interests me. Or just something worth doing. Honestly, I would rather get a job at Future Shop than at RBC again. Or Best Buy. Or Games Workshop. I don't care if I make minimum wage, or just over it, I can't handle a 9-5 job right now. What I really want is to take a semester off of school. Drop coop and just get a job that'll pay the bills. Preferably somewhere in Guelph. Preferably without my parents freaking out. I'd take a semester off just straight up, but that would delay graduating again, which I don't want.
I think I need to talk to my parents, really. I'm tired of school. I'm tired of all this deadline crap. I just need a break. Preferably a longer one than a week or two to move out of school and into a 9-5 job. I knew there was a reason I didn't want to go coop in the first place. I appreciate summer vacation.