Poker Face...
I am really tired of being this girl who wears t-shirts all day, hides behind a pair of glasses, and doesn't do much that is "fun" anymore. So, I've decided that I am going to dye my hair a colour not normally associated with tan/olive skin: pink. I would like to try to do a light pink, but a dark pink is probably going to be my best bet. And I'm cutting my hair back to how I originally like it. For the past few months, since me, my husband, and young baby moved into my parents to try and get back on our feet, I've been pulling my bangs off to the side or clipping them back, but I really hate it. So, I'm going back to the straight baby-doll bangs, but I think I'll keep my long hair. I haven't had much time to work on myself lately with taking care of my infant, Vivienne, and I think it's about time that I start to work on me again. Maybe John will look at me and think, "Wow, my girl has got her confidence back" because I know he doesn't look at me much now. I'm going to even try and spice up my clothes a bit. Mom got me a dress form in my size at a garage sale so I can make my own clothes from patterns, but I haven't used it yet. I want to take some of the clothes I don't wear much anymore and re-vamp them.
I bet you're wondering what triggered this seemingly random radical change. I can tell you it isn't random. Just ask many of my old high school friends and they can tell you that back in day I wore some crazy outfits, and was a lot more confident. Although many people didn't know it, I really LOVE fashion, even if I don't show it much. This process started back at the end of June, at my cousin Erik's wedding. His Aunt Alexis (my Aunt Paula's sister) said to me when I commented on her really cute cocktail outfit, "Life's too short to wear ugly clothes." That statement has really stuck with me for the past few months, and it is what started this snowball towards change. I am so angry at myself for letting myself get this way. I am going to use my brief meeting with Miss Alexis to inspire me to wear the clothes I like, and not care what other people say about them. I also became recently inspired by Lady Gaga. I really like her music and clothes, and I like how she is so comfortable wearing the craziest things. I want to be more like that with myself.
So, hopefully once I start this process, I can find a way to keep it together and going. I'm tired of feeling like I let go of my dreams just because I became a mother earlier than expected. I need to use that as an inspiration instead of a hinderance. Please wish me all the luck you can on this!
I bet you're wondering what triggered this seemingly random radical change. I can tell you it isn't random. Just ask many of my old high school friends and they can tell you that back in day I wore some crazy outfits, and was a lot more confident. Although many people didn't know it, I really LOVE fashion, even if I don't show it much. This process started back at the end of June, at my cousin Erik's wedding. His Aunt Alexis (my Aunt Paula's sister) said to me when I commented on her really cute cocktail outfit, "Life's too short to wear ugly clothes." That statement has really stuck with me for the past few months, and it is what started this snowball towards change. I am so angry at myself for letting myself get this way. I am going to use my brief meeting with Miss Alexis to inspire me to wear the clothes I like, and not care what other people say about them. I also became recently inspired by Lady Gaga. I really like her music and clothes, and I like how she is so comfortable wearing the craziest things. I want to be more like that with myself.
So, hopefully once I start this process, I can find a way to keep it together and going. I'm tired of feeling like I let go of my dreams just because I became a mother earlier than expected. I need to use that as an inspiration instead of a hinderance. Please wish me all the luck you can on this!