Deiss: I won't waste myself on you
I'm tired of doing this with you. I'm tired of being the friend I thought you could use only for you to completely disregard my feelings. You make me feel like shit. If you don't know me well enough, maybe you shouldn't come around me anymore. I only have time for people who value and appreciate the friendship that I have to offer. I realize that you're just leeching whatever it is you get out of hanging around me even tho I can't be considered a friend from your perspective. I thought that we were bestfriends, maybe to become more than friends, that I could be that friend that you can rely on, but apparently we don't want the same things. I've been trying SO hard to get to know you better but you always shut me out no matter what. To me, that means that you aren't interested in investing anything to anyone but maybe it's just me.I can't deal with someone who can't acknowledge me as a friend, everything else aside; I was working on that. Most importantly from feeling hurt, I feel so betrayed. Just you coming into contact with me has been a lie this whole time. The worst part is me playing the fool and damn trying, wasting whatever effort, not knowing that you'd just play these mind games and not even try to meet me halfway. I am done trying all on my own. As much as I hate to say it but I don't want to see your face anymore. Just know that it isn't me who walked away. You discarded whatever it is to chase a dream that doesn't exist. Just know that I'm not the only fucking idiot.
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