Been a while since I've popped by
Well things are rough... money, not so good... allergies, FML. I had to use my summer camp money to pay bills. I am picking up another family, losing another, gaining a TriCare one... so I'm kind of maintaining a constant poor. I can live but it's not much fun and games, and most painfully, I have to miss Summer Camp, something I did NOT anticipate and can't seem to let it sink in. I could use some good news, so let's lay it all out.
I finished the first draft and all the important parts of a proposal for Shadowlight. I will be cracking down HARD on editing this beast. I may have even found a way to expand it to a trilogy which is what those crazy publishers seem to want these days. I've been doing great at at least working on my writing in some way shape or form. Hanging out with another writer is good for that.
People are work still seem to love me, good stuff. I even got a little bit of a bonus because of an error my boss made and she decided to call it a reward for doing an awesome job so that helped if only a little.
I love Ryan. He loves me. Period. It's done. Who saw this one coming? Not from a mile away, but there it is.
I have started back on Weight Watchers, counting points during the week. It's hard, especially to keep from being too bad on weekends or letting it bleed over into Sundays (definitely was NOT good today). But it's something. I found only gained about 3lbs but it's 3 lbs of FAT and that is not good. To be honest though, I have jumped in at a tough time because my allergies and asthma are so bad right now, I can't go outside or do physical activity really save for aikido and even that is sometimes a struggle. I know I respond well to exercise though. I WILL lose this weight when I can start running again. If I don't, I will just have to restrain myself a little more on those cheat days. I am confident I WILL lose this weight. The only drop in endurance I feel is purely asthma related so I know I still got it ^_^
Doing a little better in aikido. Little by little... I know what I'm doing wrong. Damned if I know how to fix it most of the time, but dammit, it's a start. Plus, I can see in Sensei's and Shihan's behavior something is getting better because I am being called for uke more, they are nitpicking more, their comments, etc. Just need to be patient, I guess. It'd be easier to gauge if I knew what I was testing for ><;; I KNOW that is NOT what really matters, and it doesn't... I wouldn't be even thinking about it if they hadn't mentioned it... but now that they have......... I JUST WANNA KNOW!! ><;;;;;;
I'm trying to pull myself out of this rut. Supposedly the pollen is dropping so that will help with a lot of things. I hate being quarantined when the weather is so nice and sunny and warm. I hate feeling like I'm 80 years-old getting asthma attacks from running a tenth of a mile and feeling sick after a 30 minute walk outside. Just being able to go outside and swim and run and feel my normal level of endurance will make me feel a lot better. From then, it's just money... I don't know what to do about that one, honestly. I think about the future of America and everything just looks so... bleak... like nothing's getting better and so much is getting worse. It's hard to stay positive. Plus, I'm busy worrying about everyone else. Everyone is looking for work or waiting to see if they will still have work next year and just no luck anywhere. Financially, ABA is going to be really interesting but I am obligated and already committed to going to that. I may at least personally recover if I pick up more families from others in my office but I somehow doubt they have more than the one to offer. I wish I could help everyone else too with their financial shit, but I can barely support myself here. I guess you could pull one happy from this as I discovered from taking my anger out on my closet doors that I have apparently improved in my punching ability... needless to say, I will be directing my aggression elsewhere as the wood on my doors actually bowed out when I hit them. Apparently if I wanted to put a hole in them I could. I don't care if it's cheapass wood, that is way better than I used to do and we don't even emphasize punches.
All I can say is God bless Aikido -_-;; Aikido, my boyfriend, and my friends are kind of my only sanity right now. The rest is just surviving.
I finished the first draft and all the important parts of a proposal for Shadowlight. I will be cracking down HARD on editing this beast. I may have even found a way to expand it to a trilogy which is what those crazy publishers seem to want these days. I've been doing great at at least working on my writing in some way shape or form. Hanging out with another writer is good for that.
People are work still seem to love me, good stuff. I even got a little bit of a bonus because of an error my boss made and she decided to call it a reward for doing an awesome job so that helped if only a little.
I love Ryan. He loves me. Period. It's done. Who saw this one coming? Not from a mile away, but there it is.
I have started back on Weight Watchers, counting points during the week. It's hard, especially to keep from being too bad on weekends or letting it bleed over into Sundays (definitely was NOT good today). But it's something. I found only gained about 3lbs but it's 3 lbs of FAT and that is not good. To be honest though, I have jumped in at a tough time because my allergies and asthma are so bad right now, I can't go outside or do physical activity really save for aikido and even that is sometimes a struggle. I know I respond well to exercise though. I WILL lose this weight when I can start running again. If I don't, I will just have to restrain myself a little more on those cheat days. I am confident I WILL lose this weight. The only drop in endurance I feel is purely asthma related so I know I still got it ^_^
Doing a little better in aikido. Little by little... I know what I'm doing wrong. Damned if I know how to fix it most of the time, but dammit, it's a start. Plus, I can see in Sensei's and Shihan's behavior something is getting better because I am being called for uke more, they are nitpicking more, their comments, etc. Just need to be patient, I guess. It'd be easier to gauge if I knew what I was testing for ><;; I KNOW that is NOT what really matters, and it doesn't... I wouldn't be even thinking about it if they hadn't mentioned it... but now that they have......... I JUST WANNA KNOW!! ><;;;;;;
I'm trying to pull myself out of this rut. Supposedly the pollen is dropping so that will help with a lot of things. I hate being quarantined when the weather is so nice and sunny and warm. I hate feeling like I'm 80 years-old getting asthma attacks from running a tenth of a mile and feeling sick after a 30 minute walk outside. Just being able to go outside and swim and run and feel my normal level of endurance will make me feel a lot better. From then, it's just money... I don't know what to do about that one, honestly. I think about the future of America and everything just looks so... bleak... like nothing's getting better and so much is getting worse. It's hard to stay positive. Plus, I'm busy worrying about everyone else. Everyone is looking for work or waiting to see if they will still have work next year and just no luck anywhere. Financially, ABA is going to be really interesting but I am obligated and already committed to going to that. I may at least personally recover if I pick up more families from others in my office but I somehow doubt they have more than the one to offer. I wish I could help everyone else too with their financial shit, but I can barely support myself here. I guess you could pull one happy from this as I discovered from taking my anger out on my closet doors that I have apparently improved in my punching ability... needless to say, I will be directing my aggression elsewhere as the wood on my doors actually bowed out when I hit them. Apparently if I wanted to put a hole in them I could. I don't care if it's cheapass wood, that is way better than I used to do and we don't even emphasize punches.
All I can say is God bless Aikido -_-;; Aikido, my boyfriend, and my friends are kind of my only sanity right now. The rest is just surviving.