thinking thoughts you thought you thinked. I think.
I've been putting off making an lj post for the past couple of days for no good raisin! Well, other than that I should probably include photos that I took but I am too lazy to resize and upload them because I've been doing that a lot lately. So I will not bother.
Christmas was pleasant! I overslept, then my parents and I wrapped presents for each other for a good hour before we actually exchanged them. Got many lovely things, the big 'un being my Kamina: a Digital Rebel XTi. My first DSLR. My new child. Ohhhh I love him. ♥ I'm still learning how to use him properly and I imagine there'll be lots of practicing before I produce much that I'm proud of, but I'm already awed by the pictures I've taken! Other fun things included some Tenorikuma things as requested [TINY RED PANDA BARISTAS IN BEE SUITS. RED PANDAS. TINY. BARISTAS. BEES.] plus a couple books, the Venture Brothers DVDs, and footie pajamas with my name embroidered on the buttflap. Yes, there is a buttflap. Fuck yeah, buttflaps. It was a nice Christmas. My parents really liked the stuff I got them too, so that made me happy.
Spent the evening with Ivana and Maria yesterday which was wonderful. I had big plans for today (going into the city and ice skating with a bunch of people, bowling with home kids tonight) but I woke up with weird stomach pain that has continued to bother me all day. I think it's subsiding, but seriously what the hell. So instead, since it hurt to sit up, I wasted half the day working on my goddamn myspace. I uploaded EIGHTY-THREE PICTURES.
http://www.myspace.com/lizkips
http://www.myspace.com/lizkips
http://www.myspace.com/lizkips
I don't usually whore myself out for picture comments but after spending as long as I did uploading 83 new pictures of myself and friends and family and pets and my dick and your dick and George Washington's 30 goddamn dicks I need some sort of validation* for the whole thing. :| THEY ARE FUN PICTURES I PROMISE also if we're not already friends on myspace, WE SHOULD BE.
*it should be known that I completely forgot this word for several minutes and had to go to malika for help and thank GOD she knew what the hell I was talking about. Thank you, Mika.
In introspective news, I've been feeling kind of weird and withdrawn lately. To be brief, my relationships with certain close friends are changing and being re-evaluated for various reasons, I'm put at such a physical distance from others that we can't be as close as we used to, and with almost everyone else I feel like I'm just an acquaintance and not really an important part of anyone's life. Save for one, and tonight I was reminded why I'll never be able to put enough trust into what we have to ever make it something exclusive. I don't care that it isn't, I just wish I wasn't lied to about it. It was disappointing. I also find that I tend to be the jealous type, even when I have no right to be.
I'm in need of some sort of someone but I have no idea who they are or where I'm going to find them. I want someone I can tell everything to, and someone who'll tell me everything. Someone to get excited about when they come online. I don't even mean a significant other, I just need a really close friend who'll find the same in me. I don't know when exactly I stopped having that, but tonight I became painfully aware of the fact that there are so few people I'm close enough with to tell my secrets to anymore. Not that I don't love all of you guys, but there are so few of you I'm very close with.
But who knows, maybe losing the BFF-type someone-to-tell-everything-to is part of leaving behind childhood and high school and growing up. Maybe I'm supposed to do this on my own now. Oh, I don't know. The thought gives me a lump in my throat and makes me feel rather alone.
..This isn't the thing to be musing on at 5am. Goodnight.
EDIT OH MY GOD IMPORTANT! _sey, juumou, amenislytherin-- SOSAKE UCHICHA'S PROFILE NOW HAS PICTURES OF HIM. WOW I AM SO HAPPY. I had almost completely forgotten about Sosake Uchicha's existence then I randomly checked cosspace and was reminded. I AM SO GLAD. OH MY GOD SOSAKE UCHICHA YOU ARE MY FAVORITE EVER ♥
Christmas was pleasant! I overslept, then my parents and I wrapped presents for each other for a good hour before we actually exchanged them. Got many lovely things, the big 'un being my Kamina: a Digital Rebel XTi. My first DSLR. My new child. Ohhhh I love him. ♥ I'm still learning how to use him properly and I imagine there'll be lots of practicing before I produce much that I'm proud of, but I'm already awed by the pictures I've taken! Other fun things included some Tenorikuma things as requested [TINY RED PANDA BARISTAS IN BEE SUITS. RED PANDAS. TINY. BARISTAS. BEES.] plus a couple books, the Venture Brothers DVDs, and footie pajamas with my name embroidered on the buttflap. Yes, there is a buttflap. Fuck yeah, buttflaps. It was a nice Christmas. My parents really liked the stuff I got them too, so that made me happy.
Spent the evening with Ivana and Maria yesterday which was wonderful. I had big plans for today (going into the city and ice skating with a bunch of people, bowling with home kids tonight) but I woke up with weird stomach pain that has continued to bother me all day. I think it's subsiding, but seriously what the hell. So instead, since it hurt to sit up, I wasted half the day working on my goddamn myspace. I uploaded EIGHTY-THREE PICTURES.
http://www.myspace.com/lizkips
http://www.myspace.com/lizkips
http://www.myspace.com/lizkips
I don't usually whore myself out for picture comments but after spending as long as I did uploading 83 new pictures of myself and friends and family and pets and my dick and your dick and George Washington's 30 goddamn dicks I need some sort of validation* for the whole thing. :| THEY ARE FUN PICTURES I PROMISE also if we're not already friends on myspace, WE SHOULD BE.
*it should be known that I completely forgot this word for several minutes and had to go to malika for help and thank GOD she knew what the hell I was talking about. Thank you, Mika.
In introspective news, I've been feeling kind of weird and withdrawn lately. To be brief, my relationships with certain close friends are changing and being re-evaluated for various reasons, I'm put at such a physical distance from others that we can't be as close as we used to, and with almost everyone else I feel like I'm just an acquaintance and not really an important part of anyone's life. Save for one, and tonight I was reminded why I'll never be able to put enough trust into what we have to ever make it something exclusive. I don't care that it isn't, I just wish I wasn't lied to about it. It was disappointing. I also find that I tend to be the jealous type, even when I have no right to be.
I'm in need of some sort of someone but I have no idea who they are or where I'm going to find them. I want someone I can tell everything to, and someone who'll tell me everything. Someone to get excited about when they come online. I don't even mean a significant other, I just need a really close friend who'll find the same in me. I don't know when exactly I stopped having that, but tonight I became painfully aware of the fact that there are so few people I'm close enough with to tell my secrets to anymore. Not that I don't love all of you guys, but there are so few of you I'm very close with.
But who knows, maybe losing the BFF-type someone-to-tell-everything-to is part of leaving behind childhood and high school and growing up. Maybe I'm supposed to do this on my own now. Oh, I don't know. The thought gives me a lump in my throat and makes me feel rather alone.
..This isn't the thing to be musing on at 5am. Goodnight.
EDIT OH MY GOD IMPORTANT! _sey, juumou, amenislytherin-- SOSAKE UCHICHA'S PROFILE NOW HAS PICTURES OF HIM. WOW I AM SO HAPPY. I had almost completely forgotten about Sosake Uchicha's existence then I randomly checked cosspace and was reminded. I AM SO GLAD. OH MY GOD SOSAKE UCHICHA YOU ARE MY FAVORITE EVER ♥