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This has been possibly one of the strangest weeks of my life. Particularly today. I just keep receiving weird/upsetting/bad news.
My Grandma Elaine (Dad's Mom, i.e. not Berniece) had a mild heart attack today and is in the hospital. She's had a stent put in. Dad's reaction was "I was hoping Joey would go before her." As awful as that sounds, that would be a much better situation. Grandpa would really suffer unspeakably without her. He can't handle taking care of himself. And throwing him into a nursing home would destroy him, more than he's already destroyed. He loves her so much, she's everything to him. This is so not good. I'm not ready for her to go yet. The family's not ready for her to go yet.
Additionally, finding out today that a guy I'd gone to school with since elementary school knocked up this girl I knew who's currently a senior and they're now married weirded me right the fuck out. I can't imagine what his parents think.. I've known them since I was little too. I used to walk his dogs. Now he's married and soon to be a father. What the fuck.
There are other things. Other angering things and other unexpected things and other weird things. I am living bizarro life today. I would like to wake up and not have this awkward "fuck, I don't want ___ to be true, I don't want ___ to be happening" lump in my throat.
Going to Boston early tomorrow morning. Mom's insisting on paying the difference between Chinatown bus and Peter Pan bus because it's supposed to snow storm tomorrow and she doesn't feel safe with me taking the poop bus. Oh, Mom.
Go go gadget weekend-to-get-my-mind-off-everything. I.. shit, I have to pack like right now. Oy vey.
Edit For some reason, someone I'd never talked to before telling me I'm beautiful, that I remind them of winter and that I should try chai tea with strawberries cheered me up a bit.
My Grandma Elaine (Dad's Mom, i.e. not Berniece) had a mild heart attack today and is in the hospital. She's had a stent put in. Dad's reaction was "I was hoping Joey would go before her." As awful as that sounds, that would be a much better situation. Grandpa would really suffer unspeakably without her. He can't handle taking care of himself. And throwing him into a nursing home would destroy him, more than he's already destroyed. He loves her so much, she's everything to him. This is so not good. I'm not ready for her to go yet. The family's not ready for her to go yet.
Additionally, finding out today that a guy I'd gone to school with since elementary school knocked up this girl I knew who's currently a senior and they're now married weirded me right the fuck out. I can't imagine what his parents think.. I've known them since I was little too. I used to walk his dogs. Now he's married and soon to be a father. What the fuck.
There are other things. Other angering things and other unexpected things and other weird things. I am living bizarro life today. I would like to wake up and not have this awkward "fuck, I don't want ___ to be true, I don't want ___ to be happening" lump in my throat.
Going to Boston early tomorrow morning. Mom's insisting on paying the difference between Chinatown bus and Peter Pan bus because it's supposed to snow storm tomorrow and she doesn't feel safe with me taking the poop bus. Oh, Mom.
Go go gadget weekend-to-get-my-mind-off-everything. I.. shit, I have to pack like right now. Oy vey.
Edit For some reason, someone I'd never talked to before telling me I'm beautiful, that I remind them of winter and that I should try chai tea with strawberries cheered me up a bit.