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It's been quite sometime since I posted, and I'm not terribly sure I would like to rehash everything that is happening. I'm moving forward in life, I'm gainfully employed. Kind of. Good enough, anyway. I've taken to mixing my drinks in the blender. With frozen strawberries.
I took a two week temp job working on the ferry system. Totally fun and awesome, worked 100+ hours through those two weeks, one day off. Love working so hard. Met so many amazing people, talked to more than 200 people every day.
Applied for a job at Nathan's firm. Got rejected. Woman who called me up told me that I should go to their office parties with Nathan. They had one tonight. I've never gone to any before, nor have I really ever had any interest in going. It was a weird kind of comment, can't really figure out what it means. Totally something she didn't have to say, so why did she? 'Sorry, we don't want to hire you, but you should come hang out with us.' lulz, what?
So now I have another tempy job starting monday at a banky thing. Don't really know. It's a part time job, so I'm kinda bummed about that. But it's a great company and will hopefully give me some of the great skills I need to work at another company. Mixed feelings about it. I really need a full time thing
I called my dad. Told him he owed money to my school, couldn't go back and study more until he paid that shit. He actually seemed to kinda of respond to that. Weird. Got the collection agency to call him directly. It's gotten really serious, my finances are total crap. Hate him for it. >_<
Meanwhile, I think I've finally decided that I'm retardedly in love with Nathan. All those nice mushy feelings are really starting to take root. Feel so damn bad it took so long to really feel this way, but I do absolutely adore the boy. We're seriously talking about moving back to Japan--together. And really, that's the best thing I can think of right now. I'm starting to like my life more and more, but I still really hate myself. And all those nice warm mushy feelings... I look at him and thing how lucky our kids would be to have him as a dad. and I absolutely love him for it.
I took a two week temp job working on the ferry system. Totally fun and awesome, worked 100+ hours through those two weeks, one day off. Love working so hard. Met so many amazing people, talked to more than 200 people every day.
Applied for a job at Nathan's firm. Got rejected. Woman who called me up told me that I should go to their office parties with Nathan. They had one tonight. I've never gone to any before, nor have I really ever had any interest in going. It was a weird kind of comment, can't really figure out what it means. Totally something she didn't have to say, so why did she? 'Sorry, we don't want to hire you, but you should come hang out with us.' lulz, what?
So now I have another tempy job starting monday at a banky thing. Don't really know. It's a part time job, so I'm kinda bummed about that. But it's a great company and will hopefully give me some of the great skills I need to work at another company. Mixed feelings about it. I really need a full time thing
I called my dad. Told him he owed money to my school, couldn't go back and study more until he paid that shit. He actually seemed to kinda of respond to that. Weird. Got the collection agency to call him directly. It's gotten really serious, my finances are total crap. Hate him for it. >_<
Meanwhile, I think I've finally decided that I'm retardedly in love with Nathan. All those nice mushy feelings are really starting to take root. Feel so damn bad it took so long to really feel this way, but I do absolutely adore the boy. We're seriously talking about moving back to Japan--together. And really, that's the best thing I can think of right now. I'm starting to like my life more and more, but I still really hate myself. And all those nice warm mushy feelings... I look at him and thing how lucky our kids would be to have him as a dad. and I absolutely love him for it.