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Gahhh! I do not know what to do. It's not like I'm stressed out or worrying about school.. actually I don't even know why I'm El Confused. That's what's so confusing. Half of me wants to leap for joy because life is good and the love life is going smoothly, whereas the other half of me wants to whine and weep about nothing in particular. My mind is currently beckoning towards the latter. My heart however is trying to keep the light in and the darkness out. I think I just need a big bucket of ice cream and some sleep.^-^'
Anyway, today was a mix of emotions. I talked to my friend (who just so happens to be my crush) today. I truly felt happy when I talked to him. He made me laugh, while making me feel special and important at the same time. He's intelligent, hilarious, charming and just plain lovable.I know my mind is probably exaggerating some of the details, but I'm glad that he's my friend nontheless. =P
The downfall of my day was when one of my other close guy friends started being all gloomy and depressed. We talked the day before, and we discussed the topic of suicide. I felt a shiver go down my spine when he told me that it had crossed his mind. I told him all that I could think of to get suicide out of his mind and I hope I got through to him, even just a little. He used to be so happy and full of smiles but now, he's not... and I'm kinda worried.
*giggle* Tehe. I got in trouble today by my English teacher. Bah, she's a bit scary. Whatever..
Yeah.. I run out of words to explain what I feel so I'll just be going now..
Buhbou! (aka, Bye!)