I'm just not that social like that.
"Would you rather not have any friends, but have that one person you know you can rely on, or would you rather have alot of friends, but no one person you know you can rely on?"
Thanks for asking me this question ljy, thank goodness you had to get off at the next stop.
Ok i admit, i've been largely living in my own bubble, with people occasionally popping in and out, no one really staying in it long enough, nor have i ever put in enough effort for someone to share with me everything. Sure, sometimes people do tell me stuff, mostly because it pertains the person they usually talk to. but once things are sorted out between them, i'm not needed any more, and our bubbles just split back to how it was before anything happened.
Take the time to get close to someone then! Yea, tried that. but as we get older, it gets harder. by now, people would have more or less their set of friends, i know, i have the sisterhood, jy lz yf, the girls, but who am i kidding? everyone's got their closer friend outside the group. there *is* a reason why i can live on a 500-free-sms phone plan. because most of the time i dont even hit 250.
I guess, after awhile, i just resign to my fate of possibly just living life alone, with occasional meet-ups with people who suddenly remembers the group we once were. Hey hold on, where's the other half we're all suppose to have? honestly, with my track record, it isn't looking good. 4 strikes, the longest lasting how long? can't remember. though thankfully the last one is possibly one of the only people who i have no qualms talking to about anything. there's always something that ends up taking them away from me, i genuinely don't even know what's going to happen a few months later. yea, even though when people ask me, i seem to know what i want to do. but whenever have i included 'the other half'?
my mom tells me sometimes, "you put others before you way too much, sometimes doing you no good." but Here's the thing. to me, there's no point trying to hold people back, refusing to let them go, not letting them go the path that they choose just because of me. there's no point, because then, both parties won't be happy with their lives, filled with regrets later on. if i do it my way, at least they can be happy. if they still want me in their lives, hey! that's a bonus for me, because i feel that as long as both parties want to, we can always work something out. but that's the problem too. both parties. if it's meant to be, i can wait, i will wait. but if the other party doesn't see any progress happening in the future, (and again, like before) we can still be friends. of course, there's others who feel that they can't handle looking at a person they know they can never get. oh well to each his/her own. i'd much rather keep in touch, because once in a while they'd need someone to talk to.
wow, you're still reading?
I'm so incoherent, but oh well, this was never meant to make sense. good luck anyone trying to figure it out. and to whoever reads this, i wish you well.
And with that I stand by this quote, always have and always will, and leave my future to fate, as i have done all i can without pushing it too far (or at least i tried not to push things too far):
“If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.”
now if only you'd reply me.
Thanks for asking me this question ljy, thank goodness you had to get off at the next stop.
Ok i admit, i've been largely living in my own bubble, with people occasionally popping in and out, no one really staying in it long enough, nor have i ever put in enough effort for someone to share with me everything. Sure, sometimes people do tell me stuff, mostly because it pertains the person they usually talk to. but once things are sorted out between them, i'm not needed any more, and our bubbles just split back to how it was before anything happened.
Take the time to get close to someone then! Yea, tried that. but as we get older, it gets harder. by now, people would have more or less their set of friends, i know, i have the sisterhood, jy lz yf, the girls, but who am i kidding? everyone's got their closer friend outside the group. there *is* a reason why i can live on a 500-free-sms phone plan. because most of the time i dont even hit 250.
I guess, after awhile, i just resign to my fate of possibly just living life alone, with occasional meet-ups with people who suddenly remembers the group we once were. Hey hold on, where's the other half we're all suppose to have? honestly, with my track record, it isn't looking good. 4 strikes, the longest lasting how long? can't remember. though thankfully the last one is possibly one of the only people who i have no qualms talking to about anything. there's always something that ends up taking them away from me, i genuinely don't even know what's going to happen a few months later. yea, even though when people ask me, i seem to know what i want to do. but whenever have i included 'the other half'?
my mom tells me sometimes, "you put others before you way too much, sometimes doing you no good." but Here's the thing. to me, there's no point trying to hold people back, refusing to let them go, not letting them go the path that they choose just because of me. there's no point, because then, both parties won't be happy with their lives, filled with regrets later on. if i do it my way, at least they can be happy. if they still want me in their lives, hey! that's a bonus for me, because i feel that as long as both parties want to, we can always work something out. but that's the problem too. both parties. if it's meant to be, i can wait, i will wait. but if the other party doesn't see any progress happening in the future, (and again, like before) we can still be friends. of course, there's others who feel that they can't handle looking at a person they know they can never get. oh well to each his/her own. i'd much rather keep in touch, because once in a while they'd need someone to talk to.
wow, you're still reading?
I'm so incoherent, but oh well, this was never meant to make sense. good luck anyone trying to figure it out. and to whoever reads this, i wish you well.
And with that I stand by this quote, always have and always will, and leave my future to fate, as i have done all i can without pushing it too far (or at least i tried not to push things too far):
“If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.”
now if only you'd reply me.