you know...
I love days that are good bad good. Really...I do. Well maybe not really. Of late, my life has taken a bit of an up turn. I smile a bit more, laugh some, even let myself relax or feel somewhat happy. I mean sheeshe. Amazing I let *that* happen.
Today was just and odd..day. It started out fairly well, I was in a decent mood...but then work got stressful and ruined it. Ruined it for a few reasons. One, I hate letting work ruin anything. It is just that, work. I try to leave it there. But part of the thign is I have so little to look forward to when I leave work. That is where most of my rl interaction comes from. Don't get me wrong, some of those nearest and dearest to me I keep in touch with online. But of late...my mindset is so off. For some reason today, the one thing I crave to improve my mood, is totaly impossible. What would this be? Well this would be me wanting to come home to someone. To be able to just curl up with him and forget the day that bothers me so much. But as this isn't going to happen. Not tonight, and with my luck, perhaps no time soon. So I guess I just need to get rid of this mindset and these feelings I have been having lately before they mess me up..or hurt me.
I guess that is something I just need to...think about.
Today was just and odd..day. It started out fairly well, I was in a decent mood...but then work got stressful and ruined it. Ruined it for a few reasons. One, I hate letting work ruin anything. It is just that, work. I try to leave it there. But part of the thign is I have so little to look forward to when I leave work. That is where most of my rl interaction comes from. Don't get me wrong, some of those nearest and dearest to me I keep in touch with online. But of late...my mindset is so off. For some reason today, the one thing I crave to improve my mood, is totaly impossible. What would this be? Well this would be me wanting to come home to someone. To be able to just curl up with him and forget the day that bothers me so much. But as this isn't going to happen. Not tonight, and with my luck, perhaps no time soon. So I guess I just need to get rid of this mindset and these feelings I have been having lately before they mess me up..or hurt me.
I guess that is something I just need to...think about.