i'm stil here if you're wondering
I feel like it's been a pretty long time since I've updated, so I figured I should write something while I'm online, even though I feel sick, because I know I won't get around to doing it later.
So many things are so weird right now...my friends, my family, my life, I just am so frustrated with so many things. I mean, hopefully people don't read this anymore because I don't want everyone knowing everything, but I've just been really depressed lately because I feel like so many things are just falling apart. I'm working so hard in all of my classes, and then somehow I got an "NC" on my report card for my TA class with Mrs. Dominiak. That better get straightened out or I'm screwed for graduation over a TA class, and that's really unfair because I did a lot of work in there. In addition, my family just doesn't get along anymore. My mom is NEVER home, she works until 7 on weeknights, and stays out late on weekends, then when she IS home, she's always bitching to me about how messy the house is, or how so many things need to be done and aren't. If she were ever home, she'd be making messes too, but she's never here, so there's nothing of hers to clean up. My sister is getting really bad grades, and is always in trouble with all of her teachers for skipping and mouthing off...so Mr. Holliday called me into his office to ask me what was wrong with her. It was really awkward, and I didn't want to tattle on her, so I just didn't really say anything, I acted like I just didn't know anything was going on...even though I really think she needs to stop fucking around and get on track with school, or she's going to end up like me...and that won't be fun. Most of all, I feel like my friendships have totally twisted around...people I used to be closest with don't even talk to me or return my calls anymore, while others I have re-established great old friendships with, or created new ones. I'm glad to be better friends with the people I am now, but it really upsets me to see the other ones just fade out. I'd talk about it more, but despite all the things I want to say, if they're going to be said, it should be to them in person, and not in something they may never read. SPS starts up again tomorrow, unfortunately...but I ended up getting good grades out of my classes there last quarter (Environmental Science--B, Writing101--B+). I told you guys I was turning over a new academic leaf. I need to go to bed, daylight savings and all. bye.
So many things are so weird right now...my friends, my family, my life, I just am so frustrated with so many things. I mean, hopefully people don't read this anymore because I don't want everyone knowing everything, but I've just been really depressed lately because I feel like so many things are just falling apart. I'm working so hard in all of my classes, and then somehow I got an "NC" on my report card for my TA class with Mrs. Dominiak. That better get straightened out or I'm screwed for graduation over a TA class, and that's really unfair because I did a lot of work in there. In addition, my family just doesn't get along anymore. My mom is NEVER home, she works until 7 on weeknights, and stays out late on weekends, then when she IS home, she's always bitching to me about how messy the house is, or how so many things need to be done and aren't. If she were ever home, she'd be making messes too, but she's never here, so there's nothing of hers to clean up. My sister is getting really bad grades, and is always in trouble with all of her teachers for skipping and mouthing off...so Mr. Holliday called me into his office to ask me what was wrong with her. It was really awkward, and I didn't want to tattle on her, so I just didn't really say anything, I acted like I just didn't know anything was going on...even though I really think she needs to stop fucking around and get on track with school, or she's going to end up like me...and that won't be fun. Most of all, I feel like my friendships have totally twisted around...people I used to be closest with don't even talk to me or return my calls anymore, while others I have re-established great old friendships with, or created new ones. I'm glad to be better friends with the people I am now, but it really upsets me to see the other ones just fade out. I'd talk about it more, but despite all the things I want to say, if they're going to be said, it should be to them in person, and not in something they may never read. SPS starts up again tomorrow, unfortunately...but I ended up getting good grades out of my classes there last quarter (Environmental Science--B, Writing101--B+). I told you guys I was turning over a new academic leaf. I need to go to bed, daylight savings and all. bye.